Ich komme zurzeit mit meinen Selbsthass gar nicht zurecht. Mein einziger Wunsch ist einzuschlafen und nie mehr aufzuwachen.

I have friend,okay not just 'only' a friend,he is my best friend.Before I had depression,he did not know many about this,only some things,which nearly everyone knows.he was the first one who I told that I am depressive.He was shocked,but also told me that he is here for me and help me and he did this.He searched for information in the internet and asked me many questions,because he wanted to understand my disease.He did not thought 'omg she is a pschyo',even if I said I am a psycho,he just said 'No,you are just ill'.We talked and still talk so many times about depression and today he is like an expert,he knows how to help me the best and waht he can say and what makes me feel terrible.When he sees that I am crying,her knows that he just has to hug me tight.When I felt in the night really terrible,he tried to be awake aslong as possible and talked to me until I felt better.Before I started selfharm,he just thought people do this for attention,but when I began to hurt my body,he changed his opinion and tried to undertsnad why somebody does this.He wanted to know everything about my disease.I also had and still have sometimes suicide thoughts,but instead of saying 'Are you crazy?There are people who have a more terrible life and YOU wat to kill yourself?!'.he talked with me so many times about it and when I wanted to do it,he always helped me not to commit suicide.He always knows when I do not feel good,even while i am saying 'I feel fine'.He is a really wonderful person,and I really love my best friend!

This text is written in the past,but he still does all those things for my recovery.I am so glad to have him.Mine.