We're family. We need you. I need you.

One of my favourite moments of Castiel. It’s one of the first times he seriously defies Heaven’s orders. And he’s so good at it. What do you mean Castiel can’t understand subtlety? He misses pop-culture references and most forms of sarcasm, though this relaxes the more time he spends in human culture. The best thing I think is that at the end he isn’t shy or all mysterious about it; he looks Dean in the eyes with reassurance and trust in him - it’s very telling where his alliance truly lies, even then. No wonder Heaven dragged him back up just two episodes later.

#you sly fucking genius baby uGH

Cas’s favorite things

cas shows up 15 episodes late with starbucks

(Merry Christmas ~ wintercest)

#and the thing is #whenever somebody says “it’s better this way” they don’t really mean it. #but cas means it here #truly and deeply in his heart-of-hearts #he believes this is what needed to happen #because he cares about them so much. #when he realized he could shift it his expression didn’t say “oh no i have to do this and i hate it so much” #his expression lit up #he was genuinely happy that he could do this for sam #even though it meant putting it on himself.

#I am proud of Cas.

oh the way he shakes as he begins to see and feel as sam has seen and felt. the effort he’s putting forth to keep going. heaven told him that sam was the boy that he wasn’t supposed to save, that it would be better for all involved if sam was destroyed, but even when that was a real option and even when sam himself was considering it a good possibility, castiel denied it. it was one of the first and easiest lies of his entire life.

When I was bad and I had all those things, the Leviathans, writhing inside me. I caused a lot of suffering on Earth, but, I devastated Heaven. I vaporized thousands of my own kind and I can’t go back. Because if I see what Heaven’s become, what I made of it…I’m afraid I might kill myself. Supernatural - 8.08: Hunteri Heroici

 #ok can we just #HE’S LOOKING AT DEAN??????????????????????#HELP ME I CNT DO THIS ANYMORE