Long post! #trigger warning weight
So here are my 2023 No S Diet statistics:
- an average of 80% compliance over the entire year 💪🏼🎉🥳 (yes! That was my goal)
- a new record of months 🌟 scored 80% or higher
I had a rough day at work, no lunch break and am also on my period. Came home and was like "This is going to be a red day. I officially give myself permission to binge eat junk and enjoy it." Had one piece of candy and then went around looking for more but was like "Nah, I'm good".
Soon I'll share what helped me get here.
Long post: #exercise log #covid recovery
Today (Monday 8 March) my body is very, very tired. Which isn't a surprise seeing how I upped my exercise last week. I felt invincible and recovered! But I am not fully recovered. I also received some shocking news a week ago and I have been going through an emotional rollercoaster. I need to remember that this also costs much energy. I have been lying awake some nights. I now truly know what it means when something is a shock to your system. But this too shall pass.
Feb 2021 // Week #8
This week I wasn't as tired after work as last week! And I did TWO home workouts!! #progress
S - 7.5k bike ride 🚴🏼♀️
M - some light cleaning + a wonderful runnnnn! 🏃🏼♀️
T - 2hrs work, 3k bike ride (kept hubby company on his run!) 🚴🏼♀️♥️
W - 3hrs work
T - 3 sets of A* , work 3hrs
F - 2hrs work, 30min sunny walk 🌞
S - 2 sets of B*, 20min sunny walk 🌞
March 2021 // Week #9
This week I ran twice and rode my bike to work for the first time again.
S - a runnnnn!
M - cleaned windows 1.5hrs, 20min walk
T - RAN. cleaned 1hr. 40min walk
W - work 3hrs, CYCLED 8k!
T - work 2.5hrs, CYCLED 8k
F - work 2hrs, errands by bike 7k total
S - 5k bike ride
*Strengthening exercises (10-12 reps)
A) dips, squats, push-ups, lunges, front raises, lateral raises, shoulder press w 1kg dumbbells, standing elbow-knee touches, calf raises, step ups, side-lying leg raises, 20 sec plank
B) mountain climbers 30, windmill toe touches 12, burpees 10 😥, plank 30 sec, crunches, russian twist, peeing dog, superman, side plank, back crunches, dumbbell row 5kg, practice pull ups
For some reason eating bread with chocolate sprinkles (hagelslag, a normal thing here) was something I had relearned* to eat again. But adding sugar to oatmeal was still a no go. Even though it's the same amount of sugar!
Well, today I had cooked oatmeal with brown sugar and cinnamon for breakfast and it was deeh-licious!
*Not everyday but whenever I'm really craving it. Usually once a week. I'll have it. And not hate myself after.
I thought I'd share some good news instead of my usual whining: I rode my bike for half an hour today! YAY. #progress
Sun, 19 April 2020
I ran
Walked on the grass
Listened to the reeds rustle in the wind
Touched the soft, delicate petals of a blossom
Cuddled with a cat strolling through the neighborhood
Felt the bright rays of the sun warm my skin
I guess I finally understand what my therapist meant about centering myself.
Wed, 15 Apr 2020
I brought my lowest weight pants to the thrift store, was contemplating doing the same for highest weight pants. But they kinda make me feel good. So I guess I'll allow them to take up the extra space in my closet.
By the way, currently I'm exactly in between my highest and lowest weight. Basically where I was at the age of fifteen when I started to believe I was too fat. Because I was insecure and also because I thought going on to pro-ana websites would help me lose weight. So, so stupid...
So I suffered through years of hating myself, starving myself and uncontrolled binges. Then it took me years to unlearn those harmful behaviors and rewire my messed up brain. It took a lot of hard work. Fifteen years later, I am sorry it happened but glad I fought. If I could go back in time and tell my teenage self she was just perfect the way she was, I would do it right away. It would have prevented so much sadness and hurt. And scars. Visible and invisible ones. 💔
That chocolate granola? Always had to be hidden… Major binge food. Now I can enjoy it like a normal person as part of my breakfast. Progress, baby! #ed recovery #eat like a normal person
20/3/18
Today i had the same breakfast as yesterday: apple pb & quick oatmeal. And lunch was beet soup (again😁) w 2 slices ww bread. I ate too quickly tho, still hungry and had another slice of bread w pb so a red day (no seconds Mon-Fri!). BUT despite it being a red day i skipped the tiramisu @ my in-laws! Progress bc i didn't have an all-or-nothing attitude 😊
I don't do diets, but...
...this is how I've been eating lately Mon-Fri and it makes me feel reeeaaal good: B/ fresh fruit & oats made with water L/ fresh fruit, salad w beans & a little bit of starch D/ fresh fruit, cooked greens, beans, starches For me... this is HUGE. Long story seeing where I've come from. Maybe for another time. On the weekend I allow myself to eat anything but it gets me feeling kinda blah which means I'm super motivated and actually looking forward to eating wfpb again on Mondays. Funny.