did i dream too much, am i losing touch

OKAY EMMA, YOU ASKED FOR NEGATIVE SHIP FEELS, SO HERE HAVE SOME!

so i only just finished lok the other day and because i watched the show after it had finished and saw everyone elses opinions of it before i watched it i am worried my dislike of mako and makorra is due to seeing everyone elses hate before i watched it, if that makes sense.

BUT ANYWAY YES, essentially makorra has everything that usually makes me ship a ship, two quite similar characters, two characters who care very much for each other, and my ultimate ship trigger: one half of the ship in a life threatening situation and the other halfs reaction to it (basically my favourite thing to happen to ships EVER) but despite the fact that on paper makorra should be a ship that i ship like burning I JUST DON'T.

from their very first interaction i was just like no, no this is not a ship i want, no not at all. mako sees no worth in korra at the beginning, to him she's just another one of bolin's fangirls/friends/backstage groupies. he see's no worth in her as a person because she is of no interest to him, and while there is nothing wrong with not completely adoring the person you eventually like from the start it completely put me off makorra. HE JUST DOES NOT SEEM TO LIKE HER AND HE IS A HUGE MASSIVE JERK. and he doesn't see any worth in her or anything wrong with his actions until he realises she is the avatar. he says "your the avatar and i'm an idiot", but until he realises that she is the AVATAR he sees nothing wrong with his behaviour and the way he treated her, i mean she is a friend of his brothers basically and he treats her with utter contempt and lack of respect. AND JUST ITS SO RUDE THAT HE ONLY SEES A PROBLEM WITH THAT ONCE HE FINDS OUT SHE'S THE AVATAR.

and just from there on out i just cannot ship it, i understand that mako is confused and maybe we're supposed to sympathise with that but i just DON'T. if you have a girlfriend don't go after over girls, don't kiss other girls, don't let other girls kiss you (and  were the first kiss is concerned i'm really not happy with korra in that moment either, i mean she knows he has a girlfriend SHE EVEN LIKES HIS GIRLFRIEND, so why kiss the unavailable guy) and their relationship is just built on what i see as some sort of attempt from korra to impress, mako is one of the only people who isn't all like WHOA because she's the avatar, he still gets angry and treats her normally, which yes is great, but korra isn't used to this, and because of that i feel like she WANTS very much to impress him. and i don't like that in a ship, one half should not feel that they have to live up to the other ones expectations, its icky.

my main problem with makorra though is that i like mako, and i like korra but i feel like when they interact with each other they become... worse versions of themselves in a way, and that bugs me. I DO NOT LIKE THEM WHEN THEY TALK TO EACH OTHER, I LIKE ALL THEIR INTERACTIONS WITH EVERYONE ELSE BUT NOT EACH OTHER.

i also dislike the way it is so obvious that the masami ship is less developed because it is just an obstacle to makorra, and i feel it was wasted. if they wanted a ship, then pick either masami or makorra, because i feel i could have LIKED masami if they had developed them more, but instead they went from WE JUST MET to BLOWING KISSES AT EACH OTHER. so i feel like their relationship was just written in to be a barrier to makorra, and that pisses me off tbh. 

BASICALLY I THINK THAT THE FACT MAKO AND KORRA BOTH MADE MOVES ON EACH OTHER WHILE HE WAS IN A RELATIONSHIP MADE ME WANT TO PUNCH THEM BOTH. and also i felt that the "i love you's" were very very premature, and just i don't know.

maybe they'll pull it back in s2 and i'll actually ship it but for right now my reaction to every single moment of interaction between makorra i just want to shout NO at my screen.