KEEP IT REAL

Mary Oliver, ‘north country’

need a man who's battling with God

it's only hot if he's losing

a scientist will see a mouse and say put that beast in a situation

when a film or tv show takes place somewhere where you have been, it is your sacred duty as viewer to say “i’ve been there” every time you recognize a place

I’m down to just one thing and I’m staring to scare myself

i fucked crowley at the destiel wedding

Thomas Pynchon, Gravity’s Rainbow

Red, White & Royal Blue, Casey McQuiston

dean

they anointed dean as The Guy Who Will Voice All Our Pop Culture References and just never stopped to consider the implication that their male power fantasy would quote rent, have a favorite golden girl, namecheck how stella got her groove back, and, out of all movies, repeatedly insist on watching. the lost boys. there’s not a definitive number of times a guy can reference media with undeniable gay subtext before he has to swing that way, but, if you bring up fright night and dead poets unprompted, being able to recite every clint eastwood movie starts to sound less like a defense of your heterosexuality and more like a lip sync challenge

a casmary fake dating episode in s12 would have been excellent dean psychological torture chamber material. he’d develop diseases you’ve never even heard of

realizing the reason this winter seemed so much harder isn’t as one would think because of a resurgence in the pandemic going into year 3 of this thing (joke) but because LAST winter I was riding a manic transcendent high that lasted from november 5 2020 through to february 14 2021 and until jensen ackles comes out I’m never going to recapture that again

a birthday 20 years apart