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@lauryssamilkshakes on ao3. samin, she/her. writer. giffer. header and icon by laurellance. I did not intend for this to become a bridgerton blog but here we are 🥰
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Anonymous asked:

a secret that I need to vent. the line in season 2 that Johnny says to Dutch, "You don't need to forgive someone to miss them, and you don't need anyones permission to love someone you hate." means a lot to me. when I heard that, it felt like i could breathe. because i know how that feels. my brother is both physically and emotionally abusive, and i hate him for it. but he's still my brother. i always felt terrible about it, and the line in the episode was kind of a realization for me.

hey anon, thank you for this. sorry I took a bit to reply - I wanted to give a proper answer and also want to tag triggers. you’re not the first person who’s said that to me, actually - and I remember the time I made a gifset that involved acts of service between dutch and johnny, and the one that sticks out is when johnny says that to dutch. I think dutch really battled with how khlyen was her father figure as well as the person who made her life hell, how he protected her and hurt her. and what johnny said kinda helped dutch understand all these conflicting emotions which is the biggest gesture to her if you ask me.

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solvskrift

//takes a deep breath

ARTHUR WEASLEY IS ONE OF THE MOST UNDERRATED CHARACTERS IN THE SERIES AND CERTAINLY THE MOST UNDERRATED OF HARRY’S FATHER FIGURES ok this man:

  • is so passionate about his job and supporting muggle rights that he doesn’t give two shits abt his reputation as a blood traitor even tho it’s apparently the reason he never got promoted at the ministry
  • wrote the book on why u should not enchant muggle objects and literally has a shed full of flying vehicles and shit that he hopes his wife doesn’t find out about??? lmao what a rebel?? i love this guy
  • was concerned about harry before he even met him because ron was worried that he wasn’t responding to letters and when harry came to stay he totally could have been like ‘shit another mouth to feed’ but was really really happy that harry was there and safe??? ‘pls sit next to me at dinner, child, i need to ask you ten thousand questions about muggles’
  • like he was actually the first adult ever besides maybe hagrid to sit there and ask for harry’s opinions and recognize that he had knowledge and thoughts to offer im crying
  • fixed harry’s glasses for him after they broke in the floo ;-;
  • gave zero fucks about what everyone else thought should be done and told harry about sirius black bc he wanted this kid to be aware and safe as possible??
  • dragged the dursleys for not treating their nephew like a human being (and destroyed their living room what a great moment tbh)
  • gives advice that harry remembers years later bc he respects this kind ginger man so much ‘don’t trust something that can think for itself if u can’t see where it keeps its brain’
  • (lol remember that one time molly was upset about death eaters at the quidditch world cup and he made her some tea and then was like ‘i think this needs some whiskey too trust me i’m a doctor’)
  • agreed that harry should be told certain things about the resistance because he knew harry was competent and intelligent enough to handle it but like also kept in mind that harry was a kid in the middle of a war
  • took harry to work with him and made sure he got to his hearing on time and distracted him and ‘smiled at him encouragingly’ when he knew he was nervous im dying this was so sweet
  • was part of the group who threatened the dursleys to keep their hands and shitty attitudes away from harry and he was so ‘light’ and ‘pleasant’ abt it omg this dude was throwing so much shade
  • was ready to fight scrimgeour with remus when the minister wanted to get harry alone and harry had to be like ‘omfg stand down pls’
  • ‘am i about to discover where you, ron, and hermione disappeared to while you were supposed to be in the back room of fred and george’s shop?’ … ‘how did you-?’ …  ‘harry, please. you’re talking to the man who raised fred and george’
  • never raised his voice except for that one time he told a fully trained auror to back the hell off and get out of his way so he could see his injured son and harry literally thought ‘holy shit’ it says so right there in the book u can check
  • fought in the battle of hogwarts and after fred and harry had been killed he went into full on rage mode and teamed up with percy to fuck up the minister for magic
  • owns chickens

bonus: 

‘madame delacour glided forward and stooped to kiss mrs. weasley too. “enchanteé,” she said. “your ‘usband ‘as been telling us such amusing stories!” mr. weasley gave a maniacal laugh; mrs. weasley threw him a look, upon which he became immediately silent and assumed an expression appropriate to the sickbed of a close friend.’

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I don't understand how someone who is clearly intelligent can be so fricking dense and downright nasty. She's old enough now to have some empathy, but clearly not mature enough.

yeah I mean it’s really frustrating because she is definitely an intelligent person judging by the university she goes to (which is better than the one I went to and mine was pretty good) and yet she doesn’t seem to understand that human beings have feelings and that some people don’t like being periodically told how much of a failure they are, *sigh*

My parents said similar things and honestly it’s just toxic if not abusive behavior. “That’s how the real world works” is just an excuse to be mean. (It could be a factor in the development of those things btw.)

yeah it’s definitely toxic and tbh it’s borderline abusive but that’s kind of nothing new with her. she has this really fucking awful ableist attitude towards anyone who is mentally ill because of some stuff that happened last year in my family. what’s frustrating is her saying that she’s doing all of this because she cares and she doesn’t want to see me like this - but then she has zero qualms about making me feel like shit about myself. like yeah maybe the real world is less empathetic but that doesn’t give her an excuse to be a shitty human being.

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Ppl would probably demonise you for feeling too much, totally ignore ur mental illness. Use it to insult you and miss the point of u. Be unsadisfied with the way u practice ur religion, have A Lot to say about ur sexuality about wuether or not yre good rapresentation. Probably not good enough for the white girl ur paired with (if ur paired with one). Probably u will be called abusive by the racists defending their white fave any time u and ur gf have a disagreement etc

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omg lmao this is all spot on? and haha I will sadly never have a gf but if I had a white one then yes I can def see them blaming me for any arguments even if I was in the right.

sadly tho I think a lot of this is true irl as well. which sucks. but hey, at least I have people telling me this shit to my face rather than through cheap sunglasses. ;) (silver lining, right?)

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Klemmer woobifies abusers, put Doomworld happening on Sara, hypersexualizes and fetishizes the hell out of her in interviews then turns around and talks about her approach to her love life (which he's responsible for?) being wrong and "pathological" and other disturbing shit, only notes a character is bisexual when rattling off their negative attributes, thinks STDs are funny and has said he just wants to keep humiliating the team and write them as bumbling incompetents.

oh lord ummmm I did not know this? mostly because I hardly ever read interviews but this is gross. so gross. so basically he’s just as bad as guggs if not worse. good to know. *sigh* thank you for telling me!

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13 + 16 + 23 :)

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grrrrrr I wrote answers to two of these and then the page refreshed. >.>

13. your strengths as an author

apart from dialogue, I really am not sure? I’m good at overusing the same line over and over because it’s a fave. ooh I guess in my smut people always say they like that I have explicit consent in most of them and that I place a big emphasis on communication. I guess that’s a strength. idk. idk what else tbh. other than grammar, if that counts?

16. are there any characters who haunt you?

I wrote a long answer about my time in the hp fandom here. basically it’s not so much characters as it is stories. I feel like when I was in the hp fandom, I included issues that I wasn’t really ready to write about aged fifteen - abuse, drug use, euthanasia, that kind of thing. I thought I was being edgy and controversial but it was just Badly Written and I couldn’t see that at the time. so those fics that are still out there, I’m haunted by them, and some of the ones I’ve deleted, like this jily fic that had like wayyyyyy too much swearing in it, and my first ever femmeslash fic featuring dominique weasley and an oc of mine who was blaise zabini’s daughter which was a Disaster even with four betas, lmfao. 

23. any obscure life experiences that you feel have helped your writing?

I guess baby speedy has helped whenever I’ve had to write babies. and when I was dealing with insomnia I ended up writing it into an olicity fic. same with some of my other mental health issues - I ended up channelling it into my current craze at the time, which was olicity (don’t make that face, meg). 

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they also rlly invalidated the whole idea of shipping?? and chr*s made some rlly sketchy comments that pretty much said "if we don't discuss the sexuality, they're straight" which is v yikes, and all day he was out there praising the most absuove aspects of k*ramel

omg that is awful. I know meli$$a said stuff about k@ramel that seemed more supportive of it than what she said before but what chr!s said is so yikes wow.

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tag meme take three

thanks to the wonderful @eliotswaugh for tagging me!

1. What’s the otp that haunts you? Like, we all have sunken otps, but what’s the ship that still haunts you and will always lowkey haunt you because they were so amazing that you will never understand how they didn’t end up together?

lauryssaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. see my answer for this in tag meme take two. they were so fucking good for each other. they made each other better and brought out the best in each other and I will forever be miserable that they didn’t end up together.

2. What show has Completely Disappointed You? Like, started-out-so-good-how-did-we-end-up-here disappointed you?

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. arr0w, for sure. I’m sorry that something that brought me so much joy (in the form of laurel lance) caused me so much hurt.

also $upergirl after that subpar season.

3. What book has gotten to you? Not necessarily your favourite, but a book that hit you in the feels or made you cry or rethink things in your life or you just genuinely enjoyed?

I recently reread my favourite book ever, gone with the wind, and it’s really interesting because I shipped scarlett/rhett so hard the first time round (when I was about fourteen or so) and then I next read it now, at twenty-one, and I totally shipped her with ashley and felt like rhett disrespected her and borderline abused her at times and that it was not a healthy relationship at all. it made me rethink things in life, for sure.

also this isn’t a book so it doesn’t really count, but I watched this film once called take this waltz, which was amaaaazing but more importantly was what, I think, made me realise that I have depression. there’s this bit at the end when she talks about the gaps in her life and it just - struck a chord with me. in a way that I don’t think any other movie has done so. so there’s that.

4. If you could sink one of your otps so that another one of your otps could sail, which 2 would you pick? And why?

I love 0licity but I feel like I would sink it, no contest, for lauryssa. representation wise, 0licity is straight and white (tho admittedly with jewish rep and mental illness rep), while lauryssa is f/f, interracial, jewish rep and mental illness rep. it’s no contest really. also I feel lauryssa is less messy than 0licity, as much as I love them. no baby mama drama for them. both pairings have had ooc moments and shitty writing, but ultimately I just love laurel and nyssa more than ollie and felicity.

5. What’s your IMBED alignment type thing? What does it mean? Explain that shit to me like I’m really dumb cause I’ve never understood it.

I googled imbed alignment and it’s not giving me anything, sorry. if you mean mbti, I am enfp or infp. idk really what it means lmao.

6. Favourite book to movie or tv adaptation?

gone with the wind was pretty good. gone baby gone (novel by dennis lehane and film directed by ben affleck) was excellent.

7. What’s your HP house, who’s your demigod parent and what’s your Game of Thrones house? And do you think this actually says something about your personality?

my hp house is ravenclaw/occasionally slytherin. idk what a demigod parent is or what my got house is, sorry :P does it say anything about my personality? yeah, I guess. I’m studious to a fault for sure. but idk what me being a kind of slytherin says about me. maybe that I’m secrelty a little bit evil? ;)

8. What’s your comfort show? Like, a show you can watch over and over again?

wildfire. not enough people know about this show tbh. it’s so good. and it’s about horses and love and the characters are amaaaazing and it also deals with sensitive issues really well imo.

9. Favourite Queen song?

we are the champions

10. Do you watch any medical shows (like Grey’s Anatomy or something)? What are your thoughts about it?

I used to watch casualty and holby city. they were good shows for the drama and emotion. less so for being realistic about medical things. 

11. Who’s your Best Bisexual and your Best Gay character?

laurel (yes she’s bisexual fight me) and nyssa al ghul (oh hey look it’s my otp).

Bonus (cause I’m curious): What is the most convoluted thing a show has done to make your otp or notp endgame? (Something like conveniently forget someone’s abusive or having a couple randomly meet up in heaven to be endgame, etc.)

when felicity said she understood why oliver lied to her about william. just. my thoughts are so convoluted I literally can’t put it into words about how angry I feel about that scene in the argus hospital.

also, on the subject of otps and notps, I hate that k@ramel had the best songs (like let it all go by rhodes and birdy and every little thing she does is magic by sleeping at last) and that probably made people ship them more but almost ruined those songs for me.

again. if anyone wants to do these questions and say I tagged them, feel free! they’re great questions :) 

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diarygirls

listen if i was harry james potter i would have literally had my “”“"emo episode”“”“ in the first fucking book after being forced to live in an abusive home for ten years because the most powerful wizard of all time killed my parents and was out to kill me specifically but instead my teenaged son, harry james, goes through FIVE YEARS of traumatizing experiences and suffers people discrediting and silencing him at every turn before justifiably reaching his breaking point after watching his father figure die and you all have the nerve to call him “whiny”

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