concept of love: 🥰👍❤️✨️😍💖❤️🔥🥰🫶💕💘
reality of meeting new people and dating: 😬👎🙃🗑😵💫❌️🫣🫠⁉️💩😐🚫
#awful awful awful#every time i meet someone and decide to give them a chance it's always a mistake#dating is the worst but also i dont even date basically bc i almost never get that far tbh#maybe im just the pickiest person alive but i really don't think my standards are that high#yet it feels like i never meet anyone who fits my bare minimum requirements from a romantic partner#AND THEN the feelings are nonexistent#i knowwww im capable of love and yet maybe im incapable of love 😐#why does it feel like its so easy for everyone else#i feel like almost nobody even has to put effort into meeting new people and they just fall in love and end up happy#and i go to like social events and groups and places.....i joined two dating apps in the spring 🤡....for what#i wish i was more okay w being alone and i usually am but then i get lonely :(#like im so obsessed w the concept of love but but.......never gonna experience that tbh#this has been a shitpost#and that makes trying worse.....like better to not try and then not fail and feel pathetic for trying lmao#so it's either sabotage my own happiness by never trying or taking risks or sabotage myself by getting my hopes up for nothing repeatedly#instead of just being okay alone#anyway........am i insane or am i just 27......