i really be out here having cute flirty moments with guys that i absolutely should not date and then not even noticing when they ask me out
#killing myself killing myself etc#it was sweet he was doing the photos for a friend's christmas party and he kept taking my picture#but aaaaaaaaa#we are so incompatible in every way but he keeps flirting and unfortunately i do kinda like him.....#but generally speaking we would not work even remotely#we do not want the same kind of life and all he wants to do every spare second is extreme sports#which i have no interest or ability to keep up with#but we do unfortunately hit it off every time we see eachother and we work in the same field and he's sweet and funny#and just as pretentious as me lmao#but i'm not hiking extremely difficult mountains and skiing black diamonds for fun its not me and i would die trying 😖#but the meet cute was unfortunately cute#in its own way#i went skiing for the first time in years w a group of new friends and he was there and persuaded me to venture beyond the bunny slope#and i got a concussion and had to keep asking what everyone's name was 😂#and he was planning to spend the night to get more skiing in but instead he dropped everything to drive me home early and was really sweet#he also got to me first after i fell and stayed with me til our friend who's a nurse came to check me out#but anyway.....not gonna do it not gonna catch feelings when it can't possibly work out#anyway this was two years ago now and we've both dated other people (me briefly) since but every time we meet there's def a vibe#and tonight he was being cute w the camera and asked me to go skiing again and said he'd give me lessons and get me cheap tickets#ugh#alas#im really out here having these moments and experiences with all the wrong people all the time huh#guy i might actually want to like said 2 sentences to me the entire night basically#guy i dont want to like was relentlessly charming#🤡🔫#if this was a movie he would be The One but irl it's just a dumb idea lmao#this has been a shitpost#anyway dating is hell but almost dating someone is the worstttt 😭#also he was acting all interested over the summer then backed way off and now he's interested again like what does he want fr#might do the dumb thing and go skiing with him but i haven't ruled out killing myself instead