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Absolute truth. And that's one of my main 2016 goals - to live a more creative life 🎨 #life #passion #creativity #creative #goals #2016 #masteringyourmeangirl #melissaambrosini #newyearsday #reading #book #bookrecommendation #health #wellness #wellbeing #sogood #inspo #inspiration #motivation #quotes #quoteoftheday #qotd #soulshare
@daniellelaporte is always on point, but this time kinda in reverse... Today I saw my Dr for the 1st time in... Well, too long, but side point... Perfect heart rate, perfect blood pressure, pretty much a clean bill of health - she was astounded by how much muscle I've gained(Thankyou VM 💪🏼)... AND I'm now free to go for my license whenever I'm ready. The past 3 Christmases I'd have given anything to feel this way... And I gave up a lot of things, but that didn't necessarily make me feel any better. You know that saying, "Good things come to those who work their asses off and never give up"? That. That's all you have to do. Day by day, do whatever it takes; whatever you can; and NEVER give up. #quotes #quoteoftheday #qotd #truth #truthbomb #daniellelaporte #feelings #emotions #goals #passion #life #change #health #wellness #wellbeing #positive #recovery #vm #muscle #vmguns #lol
STOP.
When my depression was in its deepest I ate like crap: Pringles, microwaved meals, cake. I put alcohol or weed or other mind-altering substances in my body almost daily. I never exercised. I lived like this for years and in that time NOT ONE PERSON called me out for my unhealthy habits. Because I am small.
When I’d order French fries or pizza people would say “I’m so jealous you can eat that” yet the same people have the audacity to scoff at an overweight girl because she’s eating a hamburger and tell me “it’s for her own health”
Our bodies belong to ourselves and how we treat them is up to ourselves. I have seen way too many people using health as an excuse to fat shame. Health doesn’t equate to size. Wake up, be kind, and stop making excuses for your body shaming.
ON. FUCKING. POINT. At the same time, we need to stop attacking people in recovery for still being underweight under the same guise, “I’m worried about her health.” Recovery takes time and isn’t just a physical process... A key part of it is learning to make good choices in YOUR best interest and everytime you jump on someone who maybe isn’t quite there yet, you rob them of that opportunity.
This has probably been the busiest week of my life... And I’ve never felt so alive. I’ve pushed myself to the absolute limit physically and mentally... But out of passion, not punishment. I’ve been told so many times how well I look, and instead of retorting in my head with nonsense of being fat or too big, I just smile, because I FEEL well... I feel energised and confident and in control. Control of my life - not micro-facets of it. Find what you love and go do it. Passion is contagious... So much so even your negativity will eventually be persuaded.
“Don't ask what the world needs. Ask what makes you come alive, and go do it. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive.”
Howard Thurman
Now that's an absolute TRUTH!!! This time last year I fractured my rib and had to give up running... It's taken me most of that time to get back into it... Tonight I ran 8km in a bit under 40 minutes and feel on top of the world! For me, running is better than any drug 💪🏼👊🏼👌🏼#running #fitness #health #wellness #wellbeing #anxiety #cure #mind #body #soul #quotes #quoteoftheday #inspo #inspiration #truth #Truthbomb #daniellelaporte #illusions
Oh so true! 🙌🏼 #truth #truthbomb #daniellelaporte #onpoint #asalways #quotes #quoteoftheday #instaquote #inspo #inspiration #mind #body #soul #health #wellness #wellbeing
Caroline Myss
Caroline Myss
18 months or so ago, when I moved to this store, I was deemed a walking talking OH&S risk. I wasn’t allowed to be in the store alone, wasn’t allowed to climb ladders, wasn’t allowed to run days - pretty much all I could do was sell. Which was kinda ok because, well, I’m kinda not bad at that and that’s what I love most in this job (or so I thought).
I’ve just spent the past 3 days doing the VM (Visual Merchandising) for our entire store. Moving modules that weigh 100′s of Kg’s; climbing ladders carrying shelves taller than I am; deconstructing and reconstructing entire walls; moving literally 1000′s and 1000′s of garments... This is a job normally done by 2 people over 2 days- I did it entirely myself in 3. And I absolutely love it. I have been doing VM alongside my manager for the past few months and it’s uncovered a passion I never realised I had... And apparently am pretty damn good at. And am pretty sure now this is what I want to do, all day every day.
It’s not only good for my happiness, but it’s also been good for my health. I ate more on my break yesterday in 10 minutes than I previously would have in a week. The tiredness I feel now is from working so hard, not from punishing myself. And it’s a contented tired - muscles that ache from being well used, not from eating themselves because I couldn’t feed myself.
I looked up at the walls in the store last night and realised they not only reflected my creative abilities and business understanding, but also reflected my physical strength and ability to function as a normal and skilled human being.
I’m now LIVING my life...
And I love it.
It’s often said that Eating Disorders are about control... To tell the truth, whilst I think it’s definitely a factor for many people, I don’t believe it’s that simple or that there’s any one thing that explains why someone developed their illness.
But perhaps it also works backwards; if Eating Disorders are (partly) about control, perhaps recovery and healing are (partly) about letting go.
“Just let go...”
It’s a phrase that I used to have quite the reaction to. “It’s NOT that simple...”, I would angrily protest, “You don’t understand.” And it’s not - or it wasn’t. I think one of the common misunderstandings about ‘letting go’, is that it’s not the same as ignoring or cutting things off; it’s not reserved for the negative or unnecessary parts of your life - sometimes you have to let go of things you desperately want or need... Or think you do. It’s a case of untangling the good, the bad, and the in between, so things can just... flow. As they need to. As you need to trust yourself enough to let happen.
And that is pretty much what changed for me. It could be said that many things over a long period of time led me to that point, but about 6 months ago I started letting certain things go... thoughts, ideas, people, places, problems, the past... There was no real conscious decision or concerted effort, but day by day things slowly moved until one day I noticed I wasn’t where I was anymore... I wasn’t all too sure what was different, but I’d let go of my need for answers and to understand everything, so I just kept going. And so here we are...
I no longer have Eating Disordered thoughts or symptoms.
I no longer care what I look like or what I weigh (*other than to say that I hope my body will start to catch up and reflect how well I now eat and the nutrition that is at least reaching my blood stream.)
My head is overflowing with thoughts about LIFE things - work, music, friends, clothes, art, creating, LIVING - not illnesses, painful emotions and the past.
I eat pretty much what I want, when I want, as long as it’s vegan, gluten-free and not something I absolutely know my digestive system will hate me for.
I’m not riddled with anxiety; I don’t twist myself in knots with over-analysis (ok, maybe occasionally)
I don’t live in fear.
I’m not in pain.
I don’t hate myself anymore.
I could go on but you know what else has changed? I don’t feel like I need to explain or justify my life, illness, wellness or state of in between. That’s not to say I won’t at times but one of the reasons I haven’t written many personal posts in the last few months is that I really have had no need to... Life has been pretty busy and pretty good, and that’s been enough for me.
That said, I’m happy and I’m proud of myself and every now and again it’s nice to look back and reflect in a positive way. There was a time when I couldn’t do that, and I guess I hope that maybe this gives some sort of hope to anyone feeling stuck in that dark place where it seems like nothing will ever change. It can, and it will, and probably when you least expect it, in ways you never imagined.
Love and light xxx
P.S For anyone who missed my posts addressing it a few weeks ago: yes, I’m still underweight; yes, according to my Doctor I’m otherwise physically healthy by every other measure; yes, I’m continuing to work on any lingering health issues (digestion, IBS, intolerances, etc) and gain weight; yes, I eat enough (well above recommended for recovery, although I don’t count obsessively on a daily basis).
*Title taken from one of my favourite Imogen Heap songs because music is life :)
Kris Carr
Kris Carr
