Dreaming...
This time three years ago my life was a living nightmare; 2 years ago I felt semi-conscious, numbed by illness and desperate to escape myself; a year ago I felt lost... Not where I was but still a million miles from where I wanted to be. Today I am happy. I am content. I am exactly where I’m meant to be and heading where I need to go.
I do still feel like I’m living a dream. This week it was confirmed I got the role I had my heart set on - Full Time Visual Merchandiser at one of the top stores in the company!!! I’ve never felt so valued and supported. I’m the happiest and healthiest I’ve ever been... I am so grateful for everything and everyone in my life. Even the tough times... Everything that has happened has carried me to where I am today.
And this is how I recovered and won my life back. There was no grand moment or dramatic change... Undoubtedly I’ve learned and healed through years of therapy and treatment, but ultimately it was going out and living my life one day at a time that set me free. I stopped focusing on everything that was wrong and all the things that I didn’t want and set my sights on the things that light me up and make me happy! I opened myself up to whatever opportunities life presented... I never thought I’d be as passionate about VM as I’ve become, but now I can’t imagine myself doing anything else. I don’t know what I weigh exactly, I don’t care how I look... I value what I can DO and I’m proud of the position I’ve worked myself into.
So that’s my advice. Don’t pour all of your energy into energy, pour it into LIFE - you’ll recover along the way. Because you have to if you want to live life fully. Don’t worry if you don’t know what you want, along the way you’ll quickly learn what truly matters and what doesn’t.
Love and light xxx