Kushiel’s Legacy’s by Jacqueline Carey— Phèdre Trilogy, Subterranean Press limited edition covers by Tran Nguyen
The way no one is doing it like them!!
Pairing: Phèdre nó Delaunay/Melisande Shahrizai
Notes: One shot, Canon divergence, Captivity
Instead of selling Phèdre to the Skaldi, Melisande decides to keep her close.
the way this literally happens to phedre
I still think this should’ve been divided into two books. end on the cliffhanger with melisande, and then opening with phedre in the cart.
the way this literally happens to phedre
I just think that melisande shahrizai
resuming kushiel’s dart, I don’t love joscelin as a love interest/how that develops but his introduction is so funny
I have a lot of issues with how the intrigue is handled this time around, especially knowing how it turns out. I think alcuin discovering who killed isabel l’envers instead of phedre is a pretty critical misstep. I really think that she, and the reader, are always kept as distant from the intrigue as possible to distract from how flimsy it is
this encapsulates the problem with this book lmao. I’m with joscelin on this one!
resuming kushiel’s dart, I don’t love joscelin as a love interest/how that develops but his introduction is so funny
I have a lot of issues with how the intrigue is handled this time around, especially knowing how it turns out. I think alcuin discovering who killed isabel l’envers instead of phedre is a pretty critical misstep. I really think that she, and the reader, are always kept as distant from the intrigue as possible to distract from how flimsy it is
resuming kushiel’s dart, I don’t love joscelin as a love interest/how that develops but his introduction is so funny
maybe my bdsm game just isn’t advanced enough lmao but I have to say I find the sex scenes in kushiel’s dart profoundly unsexy 💀
for all the ways the book tries to build up sex as an art form and even a religious experience within its worldbuilding, the scenes themselves feel pretty damn artless
also, to be extremely predictable: what is the POINT of having this kind of silly premise where the protagonist is basically fucking the entire cast, introducing a creepy mentor she holds an insane torch for, and then never having them hook up even once? does jacqueline carey hate me personally?
it’s of course partially just the white haired anime boy aspect but alcuin is soooo griffith berserk coded to me
circling back to the initial thought, I do think the way carey writes sex scenes is just boring lol
actually what the fuck is up with house shahrizai, etymologically speaking? they’re essentially from not!burgandy but their house name is very persian and there’s actually one dude called persia shahrizai (lmao?)
hyacinthe and phèdre’s dynamic is so much better than her and joscelin’s :C
also it’s so funny that I’m about 25% into this reread and joscelin hasn’t even been introduced???
maybe my bdsm game just isn’t advanced enough lmao but I have to say I find the sex scenes in kushiel’s dart profoundly unsexy 💀
for all the ways the book tries to build up sex as an art form and even a religious experience within its worldbuilding, the scenes themselves feel pretty damn artless
also, to be extremely predictable: what is the POINT of having this kind of silly premise where the protagonist is basically fucking the entire cast, introducing a creepy mentor she holds an insane torch for, and then never having them hook up even once? does jacqueline carey hate me personally?
it’s of course partially just the white haired anime boy aspect but alcuin is soooo griffith berserk coded to me
circling back to the initial thought, I do think the way carey writes sex scenes is just boring lol
actually what the fuck is up with house shahrizai, etymologically speaking? they’re essentially from not!burgandy but their house name is very persian and there’s actually one dude called persia shahrizai (lmao?)
maybe my bdsm game just isn’t advanced enough lmao but I have to say I find the sex scenes in kushiel’s dart profoundly unsexy 💀
for all the ways the book tries to build up sex as an art form and even a religious experience within its worldbuilding, the scenes themselves feel pretty damn artless
also, to be extremely predictable: what is the POINT of having this kind of silly premise where the protagonist is basically fucking the entire cast, introducing a creepy mentor she holds an insane torch for, and then never having them hook up even once? does jacqueline carey hate me personally?
it’s of course partially just the white haired anime boy aspect but alcuin is soooo griffith berserk coded to me
circling back to the initial thought, I do think the way carey writes sex scenes is just boring lol
melisande shahrizai if you read this I’m free on thursday night and would like to hang out. please respond to this and then hang out with me on thursday night when I’m free
maybe my bdsm game just isn’t advanced enough lmao but I have to say I find the sex scenes in kushiel’s dart profoundly unsexy 💀
for all the ways the book tries to build up sex as an art form and even a religious experience within its worldbuilding, the scenes themselves feel pretty damn artless
also, to be extremely predictable: what is the POINT of having this kind of silly premise where the protagonist is basically fucking the entire cast, introducing a creepy mentor she holds an insane torch for, and then never having them hook up even once? does jacqueline carey hate me personally?
it’s of course partially just the white haired anime boy aspect but alcuin is soooo griffith berserk coded to me
I’m rereading kushiel’s dart for the first time in maybe a decade? inviting thoughts from anyone who may have them! I remember vague impressions of my feelings about it (primarily the worldbuilding) from when I first read it but not specifics
This is actually the one story where I actually love the antagonist telling their plans to the protagonist. It makes a lot of sense in the context of Melisande, and it really emotionally resonates.
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