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i think the hottest look you can give someone after they commit acts of unspeakable violence is approval. like don't get me wrong if there's lust there too that's great, but staring at someone with gore dripping down their chin and coating their hands to the wrists with undisguised appraisal and admiration. maybe giving them a little nod as if to say 'well done'. THAT'S what says "yeah we're gonna fuck nasty later".
okay genuinely how are people getting into hellsing rn? through fanart? word of mouth?
the manga has been over for nearly two decades. the ova too. people don’t really watch network TV anymore for reruns to matter and I don’t think one has happened in aged anyway. so what gives lmao, is it the deluxe edition releases making it more accessible to read??
okay consensus seems to be word of mouth! that’s fascinating to me
okay genuinely how are people getting into hellsing rn? through fanart? word of mouth?
the manga has been over for nearly two decades. the ova too. people don’t really watch network TV anymore for reruns to matter and I don’t think one has happened in ages anyway. so what gives lmao, is it the deluxe edition releases making it more accessible to read??
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Little masters and their demons
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Unmaking the Heart of the World (Grisha Trilogy, 116k+, Darklina, Nikolina, Zoyalina, ongoing) This is my time loop fic that is basically every opinion I’ve ever had about this series combined. It also laces in more general concepts I’ve thought about and wanted to try to work into a story for awhile— chiefly the meta aspect of time loops, time travel, and reincarnation tropes and how that can be an interesting way to engage with themes of grief and denial.
I think the sheer length sets it apart from my other fic because I don’t usually get to structure and develop a narrative in the same way in fanfic.
These Truths That Shape Us (Hellsing, 3k, gen) I like this one for the horror elements. It’s part of an informal collection of “sins of the father” stories, that’s mostly about Integra reckoning with her family, her legacy, her own sense of identity and values within that context, and how that ultimately defines her relationship with Alucard. This one specifically tries to bridge the gap a bit between Dracula, and Hellsing as disparate stories.
Ever Ancient, Ever New (The Locked Tomb, 3k, Dios Apate) I’m proud of this one because the style is so different from how I usually write. On the theme of false forgiveness, the premise is that Augustine decided to forgive John at the end of HTN and that John eventually forgives Mercymorn, and his way of doing so is resurrecting her again, but deliberately flawed and without any of her memories. It’s all from Augustine’s POV who genuinely loves and hates them both, and it’s my attempt at exploring how complicated and awful that group dynamic is.
The Scorched Sea (The Grisha Trilogy, 9k, Darknikolina) This is a role reversal AU. It was a really interesting challenge trying to preserve the characters while putting them in very different circumstances with different pasts. I like the character work in this mostly where it comes to Aleksander and how he might think and who he might be if he were younger and less powerful.
I have a lot of ancillary worldbuilding for this AU that I ever want to come back to.
Éminence Grise (The Grisha Trilogy, 37k, Darknikolina, ongoing) I struggled to pick a last one but I think this one wins out because it’s longer and occupies more space in my thoughts and so I favor it lmao. This started from a one off prompt I got on tumblr that spiraled out of control. It has more silliness and social hijinks than my average fic but is mostly concerned with all the manipulation that would be inherent to a longstanding relationship between Alina and Aleksander if he had been able to just keep lying to her the entire time and the amplifier plot never happened.
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If fighting vampire nazis, gore and guns wasn’t the focus of hellsing, what do you think the actual plot/main conflict could have been? I came across a post where you said alucard is wasted potential so … what kind of plot would show his potential? Also, what kind of a character arc do you think he should have had in a better and more thoughtfully plotted hellsing
Well I wouldn’t say the story isn’t thoughtfully plotted out :C
Like yes, it’s an over the top, campy, gorefest that makes no sense, but it succeeds in what it’s trying to do basically. I think it is genuinely, astonishingly good in a few ways. Hirano is fantastic at pacing and using his panels to give the impression he wants— when he bothers. And it’s surprisingly sound when it comes to structure and thematic motifs? The external plot is bonkers, but the way it handles these characters dealing with/being consumed by their pasts, and the way it uses vampirism/monstrosity as a metaphor is really solid.
Hellsing’s main thematic argument is one of comparing monstrosity and humanity, and pitting them against each other.
All the relevant monsters in Hellsing are presented to be unmoored, destructive, and unable to cope with the present in a meaningful way. They are defined by being incapable of moving beyond their pasts, so they seek out as much destruction as they can until they finally find something that can destroy them in turn. (This is consistent throughout the series but most clearly stated in volume 9)
All the monsters presented in Hellsing grapple with the inability to move on. Explicitly, Millennium’s entire raison d’être is bringing about a final “glorious” war they can die in because the modern world has no place for them anymore. They fight with fucking zeppelins. They’re relics.
Seras’ fight with Zorin hinges on a flashback, digging up all the trauma she never confronted. Walter and Alucard’s final battle is entirely about their history, and it has both of them looking like they did during the Dawn era.
Meanwhile, when Anderson uses the Nail of Helena (directly following the unraveling of Iscariot, and the death of Maxwell, who may as well have been his son), that is him refusing to cope. That is what drives him to monstrosity, to self destruction. That’s why he dies.
And Alucard, as the de facto protagonist, has spent the entire plot with the single motive of finding someone worthwhile to defeat him. He has no personal motivations outside of doing whatever Integra/Hellsing tells him to, and just… killing things for the love of the game until he eventually, finally dies. And his past hangs heaviest on the series. The entire present state of the series basically hinges on the shit he did as Dracula. The one thing we know about this guy is that if he could, he would very much like to die while killing things lol.
Anderson is meanwhile his main foil and most strongly represents the past/the siren song of death to him. He’s suspiciously similar in appearance to Van Helsing in the Bela Lugosi movie (despite Van Helsing looking different in the series itself) Meanwhile each encounter with him is immediately followed by a flashback, and then in that final fight Alucard ends up confronting his past human life.
And he almost gives up during that last fight, until Seras (a representation of the present and future) rouses him out of it. That’s his first real choice to move on. But it’s also established that eventually his past is going to catch up to him, and outweigh his future. It’s treated as a foregone conclusion, even if he’s not to that point yet.
So the Schrodinger thing at the end is really interesting. Because bullshit anime logic or not, the point is that he explicitly has to kill every single familiar he’s accumulated over the centuries, in order to exist in the present. Even then he’s “everywhere and nowhere” (lmao. whatever) which basically gives him the option to fizzle out of existence? So the epilogue existing at all, despite my various annoyances with its writing choices, is an interesting culmination of his arc! He chose to come back to his silly little found family when he really didn’t have to! I like that as an arc.
And in any sort of restructure I would want that preserved, even if the entire plot isn’t conveyed through boss battles. Anyway I’ve said for ages that I would want a monster of the week version of the series, so probs something like that.
Something with like the BTVS (or Supernatural lol) classic structure of small fry enemies per episode that culminate in a season arc/big bad. The ideal tonal and stylistic comparison would be X Files, but their overarching narratives famously sucked lol. Anyway I just would’ve liked a procedural vibe like that. I think the implications of Integra taking over the Badrick situation in the first volume is really interesting. And Seras being a police officer who was super not in the know— when higher ranking people are— was something that could’ve been explored in much more depth. I would’ve loved to see her as a recurring character in their like procedural episodes who keeps brushing up against this weird paranormal leaning stuff she doesn’t understand, until she finally gets involved in something that goes wrong and has to be turned into a vampire (ostensibly to save her life… but maybe to keep her quiet)
I also would love more intra organization drama that doesn’t result in immediate blood shed lol. We’re told that Iscariot and Hellsing have clearly mapped out jurisdictions based on majority religion, and treaties and diplomatic relationships, however strained. Maxwell going “fuck your treaties” is apparently a new thing, so like how does that go! What are the repercussions! What brought this on! And like are there any other similar organizations abroad? Are there team ups? I would like there to be team ups.
Meanwhile the existence of the round table implies that… the entire UK government.. is a sham? That they’re actually living in a secret feudal society? I want to know about the families and the politics and the very likely cartoonish degrees of corruption! The original Studio Gonzo show, very poorly, implemented a plotline where Hellsing became too much of a liability and the Queen specifically decided (lol) to have them publicly labeled as a terrorist organization and arrest everyone involved, pretending that they never had any government ties. That was fun! I would like a good version.
Or like it’s set in the 90s, let’s talk about how much harder it’s going to be to keep the supernatural quiet with the rise of technology, and the Internet. Like idk there’s room for a lot! I would basically just love to see a more sprawling version of this story and world.
My main issue with Alucard also is just that he’s so overpowered physically, that it seems like a waste to always put him in fights where he is 100% no question going to win. Putting him on a ship because the plot simply wouldn’t happen if he was there is 😭😭😭 I think we can have some boss battles, gore, and body horror, bc that is fun. But he just needs more restraints. I’d put more focus on him answering to Integra, who in turn answers to the slow moving machine that is bureaucracy, and just not let him do as much, and with severe consequences if he gets too out of line to maintain some stakes. Meanwhile, having a more mystery procedural approach would’ve balanced things out a bit more imo!
im the person who was asking about darklina and alutegra a couple days ago and watched the show because of the ship
There was no ship content 💀💀💀 but i enjoyed the show and do ship them. but omg there was very little
lmaooo I tried to tell you! it’s about dracula looking stupid, being wildly suicidal, and goring nazi vampires. the ship is super not the point
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We frequently stream movies and TV shows, and do occasional book clubs. I also run TTRPG one shots for server regulars. As Halloween is approaching we will be doing more horror movie streams, particularly.
We have dedicated channels for: the Vampire Chronicles/Interview With the Vampire, the Locked Tomb, Dracula, Hellsing, Succession, and Game of Thrones. Generally we talk a lot about most horror media and some anime as well.
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i followed you because of darklina but i went down a rabbit hole bc half your listed fanfic was helsing (and im into dracula too a bit but i was only familiar with castlevania’s alucard) so i spent some time reading alutegra stuff and they sound interesting. i put the show on my list even though ive spoiled myself atp
the main point of my ask is if you think integra is a lesbian. I haven’t watched the show or read the manga but i came across a discussion where some fans were say alutegra shippers are erasing her lesbian identity and forcing feminine traits on her. idk. what are your thoughts?
second, in canon, if integra was to open up about romantic feelings once alucard came back, how do you think he would react?
sorry for all the questions and i hope you write more alutegra fic!! i need it for when i start and finish ultimate lol
Obviously I… do not think that considering how much ship fic I have posted? Like I’m not sure what you are expecting me to say here! I’m not interested in ship wars. And if someone is dead set on her being a lesbian then like good for them lmao. Canon tells us fuck all, interpret it however you want idc
But omg getting into Hellsing for ship content and then it’s ten hours of a wildly suicidal Dracula in a stupid hat goring nazi vampires. Good luck 😭
Fwiw, if you like manga, I think starting with the manga is a slightly better entry point. The Ultimate OVAs follow canon pretty closely but the first episodes make some odder stylistic choices, and the vibes just end up being a little different.
As for romance, like I struggle to see her doing that tbqh? We don’t talk about feelings in this house! And it’s literally a character choice that she keeps like three feet from him at all times in canon lmao.
But also yeah I mean he’d go along with it? He has zero boundaries + probably views a sexual relationship of some sort between them an inevitability— like I HC that he was absolutely fucking Arthur and Van Helsing too. If she reads into that context though, she would HATE it.
And then there’s the element where… he doesn’t do well if offered like. actual kindness. So if she’s unmistakably talking about feelings and making it clear she cares about him, then very high chance he’s going to either write it off as her being young and silly, or he might just think that she’s mocking him. Idk it would just be very thorny regardless.
OH I just scrolled up and saw the “when he came back” bit. Idk man honestly that’s harder to parse. I typically think they’re even more dysfunctional after the timeskip because they barely know each other anymore at that point.
do you find darklina or alutegra more interesting? why?
Oh I mean Alutegra is MUCH more layered, and I think the actual relationship is more competently conveyed? Darklina is interesting to me in the broader brushstrokes of what it suggests + I have an existing forever interest in "kill your overbearing mentor" as a narrative trajectory. From a practical perspective, the larger story also just has more set pieces to play with, a larger cast, and the fandom is all around more active, which is why it's currently occupying my brain more lol. (Also Darklina isn't even my favorite TGT ship dfghjkjhgf I'm a Nikolina truther through and through) I would say Hellsing is straight up better, but its scope is rather limited and like the cast is small and the story is super stylized. I'm personally also an OC hater, so playing in that sandbox is simply more limiting. But if we're only comparing the relationships, Darklina appeals to the things I enjoy in like Phantom of the Opera, and Deathless, and Elisabeth das Musical. That kind of stock dynamic from a lot of gothics of an ingenue and a larger than life villain with all the obvious melodramatic stylistic trappings of it. It's death and the maiden, Don Bluth Anastasia if Rasputin was sexy lmaooo. It’s tried and true, it's fun, it's silly, but it has just enough depth and genuine ugliness, that it can have a more meaningful, visceral heart. I find it the most compelling as a predatory dynamic, and interrogating it from the lens of like abuse and grooming. Despite the silly fantasy plot, the point is that Aleksander wants to break Alina completely, because he has a gaping hole in his own life and he expects her to fill it. And there is so much interpersonal cruelty in that, and that is interesting to me!
Alutegra is meanwhile like playing with similar stock tropes but turning them on their head. Alucard is just outright fucking Dracula lmao. He's thee vampire genre corrupting force. But meanwhile he's Integra's savior, her dog on a leash, and despite all loyalty to her, also personally ruining her goddamn life. The moral quandaries are like tripled; being in league with him goes against everything she supposedly stands for as a vampire hunter, meanwhile he's a ruthless, bloodthirsty murderer and her burden, but also her family's victim. And there's something unique about like... wanting the ruinous canker in your life to... stay there. The "kill your mentor" plotline involves a fairly straightforward like rising above and beyond, but there's no resolution here. He met her when she was fucking twelve and she doesn't know any other life. Even when he disappears for thirty years, she is still fixated on him. It's such a suffocating dynamic! But also they are trying so hard to be nice to each other????? The genuine good will just makes it so much worse. It's like yes, there is a dull, rusty, and poisoned knife in my gut, but I'm going to keep it there and make sure the wound gets worse, and in my heart of heart's I know it doesn't want to hurt me but yes it does <3
when a character is referred to as someone else's dog. you agree
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Re: the post about this, what's your one fic you write over and over again?
I think it varies! For Hellsing a staple is very much just the characters sitting around talking about how fucked up the like. base premise is lmao. Alucard being mostly at peace with it and that actually horrifying Integra. I call them “sins of the father” fics bc… that’s what she’s grappling with lol.
TGT uhhh idk I guess there are similar enough canon divergence points I usually opt for. I try to make the plots as different as I can despite this, but the end result is usually that a POV character Is miserable and the rest of the cast mirrors that in some way?
I also just have fairly set opinions on the characters so there ends up being some repeated or at least similar beats between fics.
I guess the most recurring theme across the board for all my fics, regardless of fandom, is actually: Character Has Unresolved Trauma (lol)
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Do you happen to know of any Hellsing fanfic that primarily addresses a philosophical theme and that you could recommend, pretty please?
Hi! Sorry, I’m not sure I quite follow what you mean by philosophical, and on top of that, I just haven’t read any Hellsing fic in years, to be quite honest! I looked through my old bookmarks and most of them are relationship drama centered lol. So not much help there.
I do personally have several fics that are heavy on introspection and the characters arguing the usual series themes (usually the nature of Alucard’s servitude; sins of the father; Integra’s responsibilities) if you want to look through my older stuff on AO3. But that’s the best I can offer, sorry 😭
If I still have Hellsing people following me, feel free to chime in with any recs!