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I just like yellow, ok

@gee-whatsgoingonhere / gee-whatsgoingonhere.tumblr.com

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update on my life lol

Helloooooo all you wonderful people, how’s it going? Let me know because I genuinely want to know how each of you are doing mkay, send me a message, friend! anywho, life is going pretty slowly. I’m struggling with some downs at the moment but today I feel like I’m resurfacing from the water. I’m planning to make my family lunch, sorta. I’m thinking pasta again, hehe.  I have one piece of coursework yet to be handed in for English and tomorrow my practical performance will finally be shown and that’ll be over. so before the christmas holidays everything will start getting wrapped up. I’m working now! And just two days ago I got paid and frivolously spent the money I earned on some christmas presents for my friends and for my mum. My friends deserve to have something nice for christmas, it’s been really tough for them and they’ve been there for me when I needed them. as for my girlfriend, I’m planning on making her something, but I’m not sure when it’ll be done as i’m pretty slow when it comes to arts and crafts. I really hope she’ll like it, she deserves the world and more and she’s really been my saving grace these past few months. I probably wouldn’t be here talking to you all without her help and I love you so much. it’s also her birthday soon. I hope she has a good day and she can feel as special as I see her every day I’m also experimenting with gender a little and I’ve requested that people call me Gee rather than Gabby. i know you guys already call me Gee but I thought I would let you know. pronouns so far are she/they, I think. I don’t mind using either of those! so, I guess things are kind of looking up. even if it’s just for today. if you kind of understand where I’m coming from and you’re in a bad place yourself at the moment, know that it will get better. there are going to be days where you resurface and you can breathe and live for a moment in happiness. sometimes it might not be a day. sometimes it might just be the few seconds you spend cuddling a family member, a friend, a partner. it might be a few moments before you fall asleep or in a good dream. I know that I’m pushing through the bad to live for those small moments. my perseverance and hard work and pushing will pay off and maybe a good day will start turning into a good week. maybe longer don’t give up. it will take time but it will be okay one day. I’ve decided I won’t get rid of my tumblr. there are people here that I really love and it would hurt to lose everything that I’ve made in the few months I’ve had tumblr. if you ever need me for anything at all, message. it may take a while for me to answer so please don’t be downhearted but I will try my hardest to get back to you. you are important to me and you matter. I love you <3 stay safe everyone -Gee 

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💖💕💗 If you're having a bad day or feeling down, know that I love you with all of my heart.

Even if we don't know each other on a face to face basis or even if we've never spoken to each other before, I love you.

You've done incredibly well to come this far. I am so proud of you for sticking around and pushing through. You're absolutely amazing for getting through this!

Remember:

  • You do not owe anyone an explanation to why you are feeling the way you do, or why you are having a bad day. You do not have to keep consistently in contact with someone during that time if you are feeling low. If you are not feeling good and you need time, then give yourself that time and tell others that you need space. They will understand.
  • On the other hand, if your feelings are getting too strong or are becoming overwhelming, do talk to someone you trust. You are not bothering them with your feelings or burdening them by feeling upset/anxious/distressed, they will be happy that you trust them enough to help you with whatever is going on. You are not a burden.
  • Your friends/people you consider family/your therapist/anyone you might turn to for help want to help you. Opening up may be hard but it will be so helpful in the future. You just need to take that first step.
  • It's okay to take breaks and slow down. Today is not a race and people get things done at different paces. You are not less productive or less worthy if you pace yourself comfortably or need to take breaks in between whatever task it is you are doing. That is okay, that is healthy.
  • Take a moment to stop and steady yourself. Breathe, focus on that. You are doing amazing. You can do this.

And if you don't believe that? I do. If you don't think anyone loves you? I do. If you're falling or breaking down I will be there if you need me to build you back up again. You deserve to be happy, to feel safe, to feel worthy and to feel loved.

Know that there is always someone who has your back, who believes in and loves you. You absolutely matter and you absolutely can do this. 💖💕💗

- Gee

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