I'm being whumped by Spanish again
#aghhh#you know i was sure there would be no more spanish after ba#when i saw it (i mean foreign language in general) in the ma program#my life flashed before my eyes#seriously#i like the language but i'm so bad at learning it#no matter how thoroughly i prepare for the class i feel like i don't have the base to speak more effortlessly#in english and polish if i don't know something i can explain myself#or bullshit my way through it with words#in spanish i can't do that#some of my worst ba memories stem from spanish so i'm just not vibing folks#just kind of freaking out before tomorrow's class#marti vents#uni stuff