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#yeah i'm starting to think i can't do it#no matter how hard i work this is the progress i should have made months ago#i only have a few days left to finish everything and it's impossible isn't it#i'm so disappointed in myself#and i don't see a way out of this#other than the one i don't want to take#but i feel trapped#and cornered#if i don't finish on time all hell will break loose#and that's terrifying to think about#marti vents#delete later#tw sui ideation#suicide mention#as stupid as it is to want to die because of academia