I'm really sorry for this but I could really use some cheering up tonight
#hella heavy venting incoming so i'm trying to hide it in the tags#so here's another otherwise useless tag that will hopefully bury it#anyway#suicide tw#i've been suicidal for a damn decade at this point#and it's gotten worse lately#way worse#and i'm struggling a lot#and the post by inkskinned i rbd earlier today hit me so hard and i wasn't expecting it#and it's hard to talk about this stuff to people you know irl#so i'm bottling it up and i feel like i'm going to explode#being alive hurts rn#so much#and i don't know how to handle it#and i just need a damn hug#marti vents#delete later#suicide cw#suicidal thoughts tw#i'm sorry if it's not tagged properly tumblr doesn't suggest any popular tags for this topic