I believe in you

hey guess who just forgets to visit social media because she doesn't have emotional capacity to even scroll the feed?? yay that would be me

well now you know that i am indeed alive so i can go offline for another two months thank you very much

me not being online as I am dealing with a lot of shit and feeling guilty about never replying on messages but doing nothing

but truly I am sorry for not being here

seriously I never should have engaged with people I know I will let them down why I keep doing this to them someone stop me

I AM SORRY FOR BEING SUCH A PERSON

scared of making an eye contact because of """u stare in their eyes more than two seconds therefore u want a relationship with them""" culture (is it a thing only in my country?? IT SUCKS) *sad noises of a person who really loves human eyes* yep that's me

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ohh i just found this picture and I was so happy back in school?? with my friends??? I USED TO HAVE FRIENDS AND A HAIRCUT THAT I ACTUALLY LOVED please please can i go baccccc

three more exams to go I feel like shit and I'm losing it

i didn't like the concept of having a panic attack when there is nobody here to remind me how to use the air and not to choke on it

just how far will my uni push my mental health? deeper than it is now? what will they say next time to make me shake for twenty minutes again? i am not sure how much more i can take before i break down completely.

ugh, my English is something between "very bad" and "not THAT bad" but if I try to speak about this thing in my native language I will receive lots of shit from people around me, so sorry in advance, feel free to ignore me

So the matter is that I keep getting upset about people who are very judgemental about things that bring like literally nothing but happiness to those who like it and contain absolute zero of negative messages but that had a misfortune of not being liked by those said people. It's just you are in the middle of a discussion of something that you are both interested in and then all of a sudden they say something like "oh you know how I avoid modern au fics in Les Mis, aren't they trash" show me where I asked for it bitch.

And then when I try to point out that it is really up to people to decide if they like it or not (I like it sue me) I am told that "girls who write it got the characters completely wrong I mean Enjolras fighting for gender equality" (using that disguised tone). What's wrong with you lady?? You are a grown ass person, how can you not get a simple message of not judging other people basing on their taste in fanfiction??? Do you have a personal issue with gender theory? Did it kill your much loved dog or what?? I seriously doubt it. Those fics (as any of diverse interests that other people have grow the fuck up) do no harm to anyone!! You don't like it? Listen, I have a solution for you just don't fuckin read it. Why being so proud of yourself for telling me I am an idiot and those who have same interests as me are idiots too?? Maybe I don't get something? Why so much hate?

And yes I was so frustrated about it so I actually wrote it here, forgive me. If you read it please drop a word to me even if it's just to point out my mistakes in grammar, I will for sure appreciate some human compassion. Like.. really. Probably I will feel better and not like shit (I was arguing with her for half an hour absolutely pointless I don't know why I even tried and now I just feel drained and sad)

I would just like to remind you that your interests are valid. Thank you.