this used to be a fuckhouse but now it's full of evil clowns ( this is a dumb song joke. You're doing great )

I also wanted to state that I have nothing against Jesta. I don’t hate them for any reason, but I was angry regarding the Nihiles situation. Nihiles is one of my closest friends, so it angered me to see things being posted about him; things that were not even true, AND taken to another social media platform. Of course I am going to defend my friends. But I don’t hate or despise Jesta and I especially NEVER condone any hatred or harassment towards them. Regardless, I apologise if I did say anything rude about Jesta in regards to the post I made a couple of months ago regarding the situation with Nihiles. I was angry and defending my friend, who I know would never do anything malicious on purpose. I understand if Jesta doesn’t want to forgive or talk with me since I am friends with Nihiles, but I absolutely do not hate or despise them, or anyone else for that matter. EXCEPT for pedophiles, groomers, and racists.

I just made a post about it, but yeah I'm pretty much the same w everything Pineapple said. Sorry things got out of hand and we kinda started to just think that way. Wasn't exactly the best thing to do, and should've kept it to our private circle.

I also do wanna say that I apologize how I handled Shep later on, and to the people I disappointed in the process. My tunnel vision on Shep got so bad I started to think maliciously about everything they did. It clouded my better judgment on a lot of the situation. I still wanna do right by everyone involved, and I take the situation 100% seriously. I'm sorry for how malicious I got over everything when a lot of it wasn't that deep. I did bad things and egged on bad behavior. I regret it.

The one last thing I wanna say about Jesta is that them saying "I support people cutting themselves" in their DNI is also a lie 😭 I still forgive Jesta but dude spreading an allegation that serious about me isn't fucking cool!

I do want to apologize for egging on and encouraging the Shep stalking and harassing him on anon.

That is not the kind of behavior I've ever wanted to encourage in myself let alone the RPC. I was overwhelmed with anger at him for what he did and anger at myself for my involvement. At the time, my only effective emotional outlets were to hurt myself or to hurt him, and most of the time, I chose him.

I should've tried to get more support on dealing with the emotions from my therapist at the time, or at the very least stuck to bitching about him in private.

I know I wasn't a major player in where this blog started to go awry, but I still wanted to apologize for adding fuel to the fire, and to formally announce that I've stopped the obsessive stalking and encourage others to do the same (if they haven't already.) He doesn't deserve to be this presence in our lives, and this vigilantism might've only hardened his resolve to be shitty.

Oh yeah, I forgot to add this part to my last ask. Sorry, brain fog as I just woke up recently but have to leave soon so you can tack this on. I would appreciate for Jesta to keep my name out of their mouth bc personally unless I'm still causing that much trouble in your life, which I shouldn't be bc I've been in my bubble and not talking to them. My drama already died down when I got in contact with Pineapple again, and as I've stated before I don't need repeated stress again. I'm just taking things as they are and staying in my own lane. So please play in yours.

I really don't like communication this way, but if we're playing this way with Jesta they need to say smth about being a hypocrite regarding me aswell. iirc they said something regarding accepting my apology a few months back. I specifically remember going "Oh, that's nice. I can't really remember them because my brain is so foggy from back then but thanks". So you know, it felt nice. It wasn't until they started pulling that act with Nhiles on Twitter and acting like a child that I felt turned away from how they were behaving. Not to mention complaining about Stolas what feels like constantly Only to then use all this "hatred" for me or w/e as leverage because they heard wind of what was going on with me in the Pokemon rpc? They know very well they don't have boundaries aswell and break them with block avoiding just as we're all guilty of having done before.

Also just in case anyone tries to give blockcurio shit. What happened with them had nothing to do with why I stepped down. I did something incredibly stupid and impulsive thinking I was doing good, and they were and still are in their full rights to be mad! The reason why I stepped that at the same time everything was going something happened offline that put my life in danger. Not gonna go into details. My life still might be in danger depending on how things go with the court house. (Also that part has nothing to do with Shep btw). Basically the stress of everything going on at once made me have a whole ass breakdown. So in the intrest of my own mental health, I didn't need the extra stress. So I decided to step down. 👍

Jesta I forgive you. Though when it comes to the stuff with Nihiles, that's not an apology for me to accept. Though prefer if you kept me blocked for the time being. Mostly beacuse this has been a tough month for a lot reasons, especially offline. (One of those reasons being my life was legitimately in danger). Which is why I gave fuckhouse away in the first place. Atm I just wanna stick to my own corner. I need to focus on my own mental health atm. I understand getting protective over friends though and doing stupid shit. 😔 All I ask in the future is please try to do better and I'll do the same. I mean it when I say I wish you no ill will whatsoever.

I have decided to remove the reach part on pineapple after reading Art thing and know I made that twitter out of angry of my friends being hurt. I'm very protect of my friends and did not like what he did to my friends. Thanks being calm and I'm sorry for the chaos I have done. I generally mean it. To be honest I just be with my group friends and vibe. I'm okay with not being forgiven.

As the pervious owner of the blog I completely agree with the new owner. There's a lot of stuff I could have handled better and looking back on it I regret I didn't. I'm still sincerely sorry for how I ran things before and for causing trouble when I didn't mean to. It's no excuse at all, I fully intend to hold myself to a better standard beacuse I'd be a hypocrite if I didn't. I fully wish the new owner the best of luck, and for the most part I'm out 👍

since someone new has this blog will they post stuff about stols finally????