Damn… Then I think I am doing art for already 14 years… Damn it is already 14 years?! Really?!
I started to seriously draw then I was 10, in 2004, and in August 2018 I will be 24 years old. Wow… Time flies…
I started with drawing such a characters from shows like Sailor Moon (mostly Rhea), Totally Spies (Sam), Dragon Ball (Bulma) and pokemon (Misty, officer Jenny). I remember sitting on the floor, watching tv and trying to catch a glimpse on the character I want to draw. Sometimes it would take a week of watching a cartoon or anime to get a character right. Nowadays we can just google a picture of a character…
It usually involved fan art of female characters as I was reluctant to draw males maybe until I was 14… Body differences were a pain in the ass to get on first times and my men looked as females, just lacking boobs 😂
Yeah those arts were pretty shit but they were done by me and they were back in a day my best achievement drawing with coloring pens & watercolor paint.
All my characters had that derpy same face, same body pose and sideways drawn nose (I still suck with noses to present day…) but I loved them.
As I graduated basic school and started attending middle one, art lessons were my fave thing. I aced them and my art teacher loved my works, but as I grew in years, I felt I stopped improving, because I wasn’t free to draw as I want. I could not develop my own style and I stayed in the same spot for 6 years, so my love for art slowly died… There were no joy for me anymore…
After I graduated middle school, I enrolled into high school and took studying seriously, because there were exams in two years.
We were free to choose subjects and I chose such a things as enforced Maths, English, Physics, Lithuanian (well it was a must have…) and then came choosing one of the arts: because I am absolute zero in the music and have no desire of wood work, I chose drawing classes…
And thank god I did so! For two years I had the most amazing art teacher, who brought me back my love for art.
On the first lesson I thought it will be the same shit and we have to draw as said and with paint because we were told so, and on top on that I managed to forget my art supplies at home…
As I came into class I saw real artistic mess, you know as painter’s studio looks like. Because I felt bad I forgot my supplies, I took simple pencil and a sheet of notebook and started doodling Kari Wurher (actress who portrayed Tanya Addams from Red Alert 2). My teacher saw it and she talked me up, like do I like graphic design, do I appreciate doing portraits and what I like.
I said I had lost interest in art and this is just to spend time, because I forgot supplies. She said to me not to bother and bring only a pencil and sheet of paper and do graphic from now on. No need for a paint.
In general art classes were quite a free, so everyone could draw as they desired or wanted. It didn’t matter if a person had a tallent for art or not, everyone drew as they wanted and could. Teacher would praise everyone for expressing themselves in the way they loved.
In the similar time, on the Lithuanian classes we studied Ancient Greek mythology. It enchanted me in a way I never expected, I desired to draw such a scenes, as Odysseus separating from Penelope, Perseus killing a fish monster, Artemis hunting in the forrests or Hera being proud queen.
So as a nerd I am, I started doodling mythology and gods during art lessons. My art teacher saw that and asked me if I liked drawing mythology. I nodded and she brought out an idea for me to have my art exhibition in the school called “Gods of Olympus”
I drew and we did the exhibition. I got few praises, but the most beautiful thing for me was, I HAD MY FUCKING ART EXHIBITION! ME! AN ART EXHIBITION!
It was amazing feeling. Well, my art sucked bad, because I recently started doing graphics, but my other drafting lessons helped me to get to know pencil types and their usage… So I improved a bit over the years.
My art teacher was proud of my exhibition and even offered me to take art exam, but sadly I refused because I had to prepare for Maths and Physics… I am quite sad now I didn’t take it actually… She also told me to pursue career in the cartoon creation, because of half realistic, half cartoony style I had. She noticed eyes in my drawings are those little gems, that sometimes go unnoticed but bring the most life (same is still happening now. I pour most into the eyes, but because tumblr screws up image quality, I don’t think many of my followers notice that… 😂 )
Nevertheless, my art teacher used to say words, I never forget:
“There is not bad or ugly art, there is only dumb, arrogant people, who don’t get it…”
And I think she was absolutely right. If someone says your art is not worth a time, it isn’t your fault, dumb person doesn’t understand that art has no boundaries and rules. Art is about expression and being unique, not about accuracy and rules…
Look at me: a kid from a villager family, an absolute social disaster, a nerd and an outcast now sharing her art of the characters she created and love with a worldwide community. It is unbelievable! That small kid from 2004s never even would’ve even had dreams she’ll be drawing digital fanart and would actually have people appreciating her art in the fandom.
This is just an unbelievable achievement for me… and I am quite thrilled to see what life will throw for me next…