Nerd Shit

Finally finished my Shep portraits. I love them sm.

Smutober Day Two! Ft. Hawke Shepard x Kaidan Alenko

Hawke made an appearance last year cause she's too pretty but her tattoos are brutal, and took like half the time of this whole piece.

Find the full versions (here) & (here).

Full piece contains full nudity/sex.

hey so try not to think about Kaidan after the first Normandy was destroyed

try not to think about Kaidan watching the Normandy explode and screaming until his throat is raw when Joker comes on the radio and says Shepard was spaced

try not to think about Kaidan spending months blaming himself for Shepard’s death, thinking that if he had insisted on staying, maybe he would be dead instead of Shepard, and maybe that’d be okay, because at least then Shepard would be alive

try not to think about Kaidan not speaking to anyone for weeks, because every conversation is a reminder of the way he and Shepard used to talk

try not to think about Kaidan struggling for over a year to face the simplest of things, like morning coffee, because they were part of the routine on the Normandy

try not to think of how Kaidan must have been surrounded by stories of Shepard’s bravery, Shepard’s nobility, how much of a hero Shepard was, no matter where he went

try not to think about how every mention of Shepard’s name must have been a knife in his heart, a reminder that Shepard is gone

try not to think about Kaidan, constantly drowning out the stories and rumors about Shepard, suddenly overhearing one day “I heard that Shepard’s actually alive”

try not to think about Kaidan practically begging for the post on Horizon, because it’s a slim chance at an answer, to see if that rumor he heard that tore out his heart could maybe, just maybe, be true

because these are not fun things to think about