12 July 2023
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Stay golden you stupid fuckin' gob!
I want visible dental work - [AU]RGH
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It's just that I feel I [ROT] create my whole self through my mouth. It's where the talking, [ROT] eating, sex - so much of the self happens in the my mouth. ROT
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I MAKE MYSELF [ROT] THROUGH MY MOUTH
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and when dental work is happening or immanent, I feel existential dread like real bone-pain* existential dread.
VISIBLE MENDING
Stones Corner Dental - from last year when I had a gold crown installed. I got it because I think visible mending is cool. And because I like the phrase "a rat with a gold tooth". And because if it's gonna cost 2K, I reckon it should look expensive. And because so much dental work gets done, and hidden, it has become such an enormous class signifier. Quiet Luxury, is people never noticing your teeth.
And because of Garden State and New Slang - The Shins Gold Teeth and a Curse for this Town. Were all in my mouth.
*Bone-Pain is a term I heard when a student dentist was removing my wisdom teeth. I was awake in the chair, they were using a bone saw to remove the root of the tooth from my jaw bone, and their supervising professor lent across my open maw and looking into my face said: "I know you're still feeling pain, I can see it in your face. Unfortunately we've already given you three blocks (anesthetic) and that's all we can give in this clinic. Not that it would help all that much because what you're feeling is "bone-pain", all I can say is - it'll be over soon".
I tell this story all the time, because I'll never forget. Teeth are a monster. Teeth are a blight! TEETH TEETH TEETH TEETH.