I still love you

I still miss you

I still love the way our names sound together

I miss being part of two

I miss the way you held my hand

And rubbed my shoulder when I was upset

I missed the way your lips stained mine

Your kiss is a feeling I’d never forget

I miss the way we’d laugh til we cried

At the stupidest things

I miss the way we got married in a week

And decided against having rings

I miss the way I could call you

Whether I was feeling happy or sad

I miss the way you cared

You’re the best friend I ever had

I miss how I could call you up

Night or day; you would be there

Now I have nothing and no one

And I don’t belong anywhere

I’m starting to feel the time pass me by… And, it’s scaring me. Is there enough? Do I have enough time with my wife? It scares me. And when my time is up, will I know? Like, is there a sign? Or a warning? Or will it just suddenly stop? Without signs, without warnings. Do I have enough time to love my wife the way she deserves, the way I know I can and want to? Why do I feel time ticking away with every beat of my heart? I’m not ready to have a whatever life crisis right now. I gotta calm down. But is there even enough time?

Oko Ninjah

How I know she loves me

She covers me with a blanket in the middle of the night

And when I've had a bad dream, she won't leave my side

She's there when I'm happy and excited, mad and upset

She's there when I'm being a sarcastic little shit

She tells me she loves me and good night every evening

Not to mention the sex is mind blowing, so I know that she loves me

But it's more than just sex, we're making love

And the more that we do, the more I can't get enough

She is the sun and the moon and even the galaxies up in the sky

She's the wish that I made on a falling star one night

Oko Ninjah (confessions from an amateur heart)

Fucking hell… I just want to plant my mouth on her pussy and start licking and sucking and I want to finger her pussy until her thighs close around my face and neck… And I just want to make her cum. Like, I don’t really fucking know why but I crave her. I just want to kiss her and fucking grip her body, I want to make her heart race and her fucking chest feel like its about to burst - I want to make her cum.

I want to get lost between her thighs. I want… Her. I want her moaning - soft and loud, with my name in her mouth while her clit is in mine and the word ‘f-f-fu-uck’ fumbles from her lips as she starts to twitch.

And then.. Then I want to taste every. fucking. drop. of her flavor.

I want her to stain my lips and poison my mind and ruin them for everyone else.

Oko Ninjah (so I’ve been craving something…)

I couldn't stop thinking

Today's a shitty day

So I started drinking

But it didn't go away

I started to cut

I even punched stuff

But I was stuck in these thoughts

And that pain just wasn't enough

So I called up someone

Someone from before

And one thing led to another

And it led to something more

My head between her knees

My tongue tracing her thighs

I did all the fucking

That's just what I like

You see, it happens to distract me

Because I need to be in control

I want to make someone cum

I want them to completely let go

And that's just what I did

Earlier today

But it was just fucking

Then I walked away

The thoughts came rushing back

Because the calm faded away

I didn't know what else to do

So I drank for the rest of the day

I met up with someone else

Someone who always has drugs

Let's call her an old friend

Or one of my plugs

I was only drinking beer

But when I got to her house

She had whiskey, vodka and rum

And I had each of them in my mouth

She also had cocaine

Now that was really fun

I don't know how much I did

I just kept snorting til I went numb

Then we smoked a bunch of weed

And drank a little more

Then she kissed me

And we ended up on the floor

I have to be in control

She already knows this

But something flashed in my head

And I started to lose it

She told me, 'just focus on me'

Then she kissed my lips

I pulled away again

Then she said, 'I know you need this'

But every time I closed my eyes

I saw something I didn't want to see

I told her, 'this isn't working'

And then she said, 'keep your eyes open and kiss me'

And so I did just that

And it happened to work

She pulled onto my hair

While I fucked her

When we were finished

We did some more coke

We drank some more liquor

And there was still weed to smoke

I stayed an hour longer

And then I walked away

But then the thoughts came back

Did I mention today's a shitty day?

-Oko Ninjah (I had shit day, so here's a shit poem)

shit poem #10 & #11

Oko Ninjah (shit poem #9 / 3am thoughts)

oko ninjah (shit poem #8)

oko ninjah (shit poem #7)

oko ninjah (shit poem #4)

Oko Ninjah (shit poem #3)

Oko Ninjah (demons)

Oko Ninjah (thoughts)

Excuse my shitty handwriting, its not always this shitty. ..

Oko Ninjah

Truth

Oko Ninjah (monster)