How I know she loves me

She covers me with a blanket in the middle of the night

And when I've had a bad dream, she won't leave my side

She's there when I'm happy and excited, mad and upset

She's there when I'm being a sarcastic little shit

She tells me she loves me and good night every evening

Not to mention the sex is mind blowing, so I know that she loves me

But it's more than just sex, we're making love

And the more that we do, the more I can't get enough

She is the sun and the moon and even the galaxies up in the sky

She's the wish that I made on a falling star one night

Oko Ninjah (confessions from an amateur heart)

Oko Ninjah (loves me not)

I'm sorry, but maybe I just want to hold you

You know, cuddle a bit

Just to feel your body against mine

And have you rest your head under my chin

Maybe I just want to sit in silence

You know, just exist next to you

Listen to music and lay down

Maybe smoke a joint or two

Maybe I just want to kiss you

You know, have my lips touch yours

Have our tongues wrestle for a little

And push you up against the door

Maybe I just want to love you

You know, forever and always

Like, I have your back and you have mine

Today, tomorrow and the rest of the days

Oko Ninjah (maybe...)

Oko Ninjah (confessions from my amateur heart)

Oko Ninjah (I’m a sad fucking puppy without my wife - shitty poem)

Oko Ninjah (A Poem For My Wife) 

I don’t know what love is

I honestly don’t

But if you were ever hurt

I think I’d go mental

I can’t say I love you

I don’t know what that means

But no matter what I go through

I’d like you with me

I can’t say those three words

Because I just can’t define

The way you make my heart hurt

And send a tremor down my spine

I can’t tell you I’m scared

Because if I ever did

I’d say when you’re not there

It’s like my chest is ripped open

See, you spin me in a circle

Yeah, that’s what you do

I see other people

But only really want you

I hate feeling this way

Because I haven’t before

I would never want to stay

But with you, I’d like more

I want the warmth of your hands

And the color of your eyes

But this wasn’t the plan

To fall in love with your sigh

Maybe there’s something wrong with me

I don’t know what to do

Because it’s like I can’t breathe

When I try to look at you

Have you ever felt that?

Like your chest is in knots?

It’s like your heart’s under attack

But then you feel it start to throb

I won’t say that it’s love

Because I know that it’s not

But she is who I think of

Even though I should stop

Love isn’t for me

I don’t deserve that

Just having these feelings

Feels quite bad

You can’t make me matter

You can’t make me care

Because if my heart were to shatter

There’d be no one there

So, I can’t say this is love

But even if it were

I wouldn’t be enough

And I would probably lose her

- Oko Ninjah (confessions from my amateur heart)

I shouldn't have left the house today

I should have just stayed in

Because maybe then I would be with her

Beside each other, somewhere kissing

Even if my kisses are bad

I really don't mind

I want to practice for hours

Until our lips intertwine

But I'm so fucking nervous

Because she is amazing

She is the world

And I am absolutely nothing

I'm not thinking of the future

It's all about the moments

And right now, in this second

I just want to kiss her lips

But she's already back there

She's probably doing something

The moment has passed

And I guess I'll get some sleep

Look... It's hard to look at her. It's like I can't breathe around her. But I can feel my heart throb. I mean, how is that even possible? How can she fill my head with a billion thoughts but have me speechless by her beauty? It doesn't make sense.

Oko Ninjah (confessions from my amateur heart)

I like the idea of reading a book, drinking coffee while the woman I love watches television beside me... Most likely, it won't happen for me. I just like the idea of it. My thoughts drive me mad most times but even just for a moment, this thought calms me.

Oko Ninjah (confessions from my amateur heart)

It is physically and mentally impossible for me to not feel so much for her. It is the single most frustrating and incredible thing I've ever felt. It's frustratingly fantastic.

Oko Ninjah (confessions from my amateur heart)

I want to kiss her until her lips are stained by mine. And if she were to kiss another, she would still taste me on her lips. I want to kiss her and make her body throb.

Oko Ninjah (confessions from my amateur heart)

If I told you... If I said that I wanted you and that I'd do nearly anything and everything you asked me to.. If I said that when you walk into a room, everything seems brighter and when you leave - it's as if there was never any light to begin with. If I said that when you're around me, I feel like I can't speak because my words disappear every time I catch a glimpse of you but I manage to find words because I don't want to bore you away... If I said all that, would you let me.. Show you just how much you matter to me? Because I might just fucking love you.

Oko Ninjah (confessions from my amateur heart)

how could a voice sound so beautiful? how is that even possible?

Oko Ninjah (confessions from my amateur heart)

You need to understand, I love her. Only her. She is the only person that I want. Because she's all I see. In a crowd of people, she's the only one I'm looking for. In a concert full of noise, she's the only heartbeat that I will find. I will always be tethered to her heart.

Oko Ninjah (confessions from my amateur heart)

You know, I would promise... I would promise to love you until the last star dies or until the last drop of every ocean dries up... I would promise to love you until the sun explodes or until my heart stops beating but I don't believe it. Not that I wouldn't love you until these things happen. I just don't believe that my love for you would stop if these things would happen. Because I love you so much that it goes through my mind through my heart and into my soul. And even if these things happen, my soul or the energy I started out as - I believe it would still love you. I would still love you. And if your energy isn't near me then I believe it would look for you. I found you once and knowing your love, I know I'd find you again.

Oko Ninjah (confessions from my amateur heart)

She deserves someone who will make love to her until she is exhausted from so much pleasure. I'm not that someone - well, not yet.. But I will be.

Oko Ninjah (confessions from my amateur heart)