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. recently lost everything and everyone i ever cared and loved . saw a sign and now I’m running with it . wasted time and wasted space . but I need to find a way out of this place .

It hurts when she cries I honestly mean that It's like the glued broken bits of my heart Are starting to crack It feels like my torn and bent soul Took a dive in a pit of tar And when I try to wipe it off It reveals that my soul is also scarred It hurts when she cries I really do mean this It's like getting really high Then it turns out being a bad trip It's like you're down one point And you've got the ball But you still miss the shot After giving it your all It hurts when she cries Like it damn near stings The sound of her sobbing Makes my ears ring It's like they're a specific frequency One my ears just can't take It's too loud that it's deafening Like the sound barrier could break It hurts when she cries You just don't get it They put an ache in my head And they burn holes in my chest It's like it crumbles my world When there are tears on her cheeks It makes the world dim And it makes my knees weak But it hurts when she cries Like there are bees in my head It leaves me with a pain in my temple And my face feels swollen It makes music sound shit And colors start to fade It's almost like I can feel my heart begin to break It hurts when she cries Because she's the world to me She's the sun and the moon And every star in between She's both; The sunrise and sunset The reason my heart breaks And why it'd start again

Oko Ninjah (it hurts...)

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You make me feel so deeply Things I've never felt Although I try to ignore them I just can't seem to help myself From your kisses in the morning And the ones you give at night I feel like I haven't ever felt this happy Not ever, in all my life And, the sex is fucking amazing Because it isn't just a fuck We'd start by having sex Then end up making love See our bodies get intertwined They start to move in sync It's like you're a fountain of water And I'm desperate for a drink Our kisses are passionate They're full of lust I swear you could cut the sexual tension Between the both of us The air would be full of electricity And our lips would slowly meet There'd be less than an inch between us But I'd probably pull your body against me Your skin feels amazing Whenever I feel your touch And when your hand slides between my thighs... I'm just like, "Oh my fucking.. God" It's not just about the sex Because you've got my heart, too No one else has ever gotten that But, it was somehow magnetized to you You're honestly amazing You're honestly the best I promise to love you Even passed my last my breath

Oko Ninjah (confessions of my amateur heart)

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It was at a party. I just went there for the drinks and weed. And I got them. But before I left, I met her. I met a woman who was going to change my life and I wasn't even prepared for it. We instantly... Disliked each other. She was this brilliant, gorgeous, strong minded person. She had so much to say about the economy and I don't even have a job. She was all about structure and rules and I went with the flow without a fuck to give. And we let each other know that. I made a comment about a cover of Bieber's Let Me Love You by Maia Mitchell and said it was better than the original. She called me a prick and I called her a Belieber bitch. And it went on like that for most of the night. We called each other names and made stupid comments towards each other. But we both smoked weed and we both drank whiskey. Somehow our hands found their way to each other and she said something about my dimples that made me lick my lips. And soon enough, they were against hers. And our hands were all over each other. We whispered the names we called each other earlier but now the names held seduction and lust in them. We didn't agree on a lot. To he honest, we disagreed more than we did agree. But we compromised with each other and learned from one another. She was and still is one of the best people I've ever known. Things didn't last long between us. The disagreeing caught up to us and we went from compromising to complaining and the fucking quickly turned to fighting. We ended things before we hated each other. I think about her a lot. I always wonder what it would be like if we stayed together. If it would work out or if our break up was inevitable. But I'll never forget that night. I was just interested in getting some drinks, some weed. And I left with a brilliant, gorgeous, strong minded woman who will always haunt my thoughts.

Oko Ninjah (haunting)

It was at a party. I just went there for the drinks and weed. And I got them. But before I left, I met her. I met a woman who was going to change my life and I wasn't even prepared for it. We instantly... Disliked each other. She was this brilliant, gorgeous, strong minded person. She had so much to say about the economy and I don't even have a job. She was all about structure and rules and I went with the flow without a fuck to give. And we let each other know that. I made a comment about a cover of Bieber's Let Me Love You by Maia Mitchell and said it was better than the original. She called me a prick and I called her a Belieber bitch. And it went on like that for most of the night. We called each other names and made stupid comments towards each other. But we both smoked weed and we both drank whiskey. Somehow our hands found their way to each other and she said something about my dimples that made me lick my lips. And soon enough, they were against hers. And our hands were all over each other. We whispered the names we called each other earlier but now the names held seduction and lust in them. We didn't agree on a lot. To he honest, we disagreed more than we did agree. But we compromised with each other and learned from one another. She was and still is one of the best people I've ever known. Things didn't last long between us. The disagreeing caught up to us and we went from compromising to complaining and the fucking quickly turned to fighting. We ended things before we hated each other. I think about her a lot. I always wonder what it would be like if we stayed together. If it would work out or if our break up was inevitable. But I'll never forget that night. I was just interested in getting some drinks, some weed. And I left with a brilliant, gorgeous, strong minded woman who will always haunt my thoughts.

Oko Ninjah (haunting)

She’s ridiculously funny. And she’s smart. Way smarter than I am. My grades were shit so hers must’ve been like, sky high. She does this thing with her hands… When she’s nervous, she picks at her nails. She literally doesn’t know when she’s doing it, its like a reflex even though it rarely happens. But it’s cute if you catch her. Oh, her hiccups, they’re like squeaky. I always tease her, mickey mouse but its one of my favorite things about her. Her left eyebrow slightly lifts when she’s happy, smiling and laughing. And I just can’t not smile if she’s smiling. Its physically impossible. If she’s smiling, I’m smiling. If she’s laughing, I’m laughing. Her happiness is just.. Contagious. She’s just this awesome person. She’s the only person who can get me to smile when I’ve had a shitty day. I mean, I really like her. I don’t know what else to say, she’s just incredible.

Oko Ninjah (her pt. 2)

Yell at me, go ahead. Fucking scream at me until you’re blue in the face. Push me away all you want - it doesn’t change anything. I love you. I fucking love you. And we both know you love me too. You’re scared. I get it. So am I. But I think that’s the point in loving someone. You give them your heart knowing that they can break it but trusting that they won’t. I am not going to hurt you. I won't break your heart, I would never - I could never... You are so important to me and I just want us. I want you. So yell, scream, push me away all you want because I know you. And you should know, I'm not going anywhere. Why push me away when you're as miserable as I am when we're apart? Why put off the inevitable? Because I do love you and you love me right back. Stop being a fucking bitch so we can go back to loving to hate each other already. Okay?

Oko Ninjah (push & pull me)

Dear You,

I didn’t believe in love because of my parents’ divorce then i figured out my siblings are not 100% into commitment, so I decided that I wouldn’t be like them. I’d be honest with whoever I’m with and tell them its not serious. It worked for me. Sure there were some arguing and threats, I even got jumped a few times but I meant what I said and I guess they thought they’d change my mind but they didn’t. You did. And honestly, I don’t really know how you did it. Because you’re like other girls; you’re a dork and smart, you do the weirdest shit, you binge watch shows (even the shitty reality shows), you’re part demon when I get on your bad side but the rest of you is like this adorkable, smart, brave, beautiful woman and I love you. I guess thats what it is, how you did it. You made me fall for you. Clever. Heh. And holy fucking cupid’s heartbeats, did I fall for you! I mean, everything from morning to nights and pissed off to all smiles and rain to shine - you got me on lock and no one else knows the combination. God... I fucking love you.

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‘What if you meet someone else? Or what if you stop loving me?’ She asked with tears in her eyes. She was going away for a few months and worried about what would happen. I kissed her forehead then smiled. 'Its not gonna happen. Just because you won’t be in front of me for a while doesn’t mean you’ll leave my heart.’ She smiled back at me but it quickly faded. Then there was a silence between us and my smile faded. Then she spoke, 'What if I find someone else? What if I come back and I’ve stopped loving you?’ I felt my chest tighten and it hurt to even hear her ask those questions. Tears filled my eyes and a few escaped onto my face but I quickly wiped them away. 'I love you now and I’ll still love you when you get back. But if that happens then…’ She interrupted me, 'It’ll be over?’ My smile widened. 'Yeah, for whoever that other girl is. Because I’m not gonna just let you go. I’m gonna continue to love you and I’m gonna remind you that you love me back. So its okay if you find someone else because like I said, I love you now and I’ll still love you when you get back.’ She kissed me then snuggled into my arms and soon after we fell asleep. We forgot about our worries because right now, laying beside each other, we were in love and that was all that mattered - it was everything.

Oko Ninjah (Miles Don’t Mean Anything)

It wasn't that she was the most beautiful creation I've ever laid my eyes on or that her voice could shatter my world with a few words or that she's the only person who could binge watch horror movies with me while on the phone - it wasn't that when we were together we could just stare at the world in front of us without saying anything to each other and it would still be one of the best days I've ever lived. No. It wasn't because of those reasons. I loved her because she had this gravitational pull about her. And that I always seemed to find it no matter where I was. Even when we broke up, even when she kicked me out, even when we shattered each other's hearts - we would come back to each other. As friends, as neighbors, then in the end - as lovers. That's what it was.

Oko Ninjah (what it was)

Yes. I want to be with you. I want to take you on stupid romantic dates and hold your hand in public. I want to learn how to cook so we can stay in and eat my (probably) horrible tasting food then just order chinese food from that place in Waipahu. Fuck… I mean of course I want to be with you. I want to kiss you good morning, good afternoon, snack time, good night - every chance I get, I want to kiss you. You mean so much to me, you’re the only person who matters right now. So yes, I want to be with you. Because you piss me off but know how to make me smile while doing it. You make me be better than I am even though you’re bit of a nazi about it, I love that. I want to be with you because we’re like lightning and thunder. Sure, thunder’s loud and explosive at times but you realize it’s like the clouds are playing the drums (me) then you see lightning and even though it’s fierce and intimidating, it’s beautiful with every branch of electricity (you). And both of them together? Hell of a storm. I want to be with you because.. Fuck, you’re going to make me say it. - I love you, okay? I fucking love you and I want to fucking be with you because I’m yours already and if there’s even a fraction of a fraction that I could be with you then everything would be… okay, you know?

Oko Ninjah (be with you)

It happened kind of like this… I fell for her eyes because I could see a forever with her. I could see galaxies within her pupils and it intrigued me so much that I never wanted to blink. Then I fell for her lips because each kiss was like drinking. Intoxicating and consuming and she has the sweetest lips I’ve ever tasted. Then I fell for her hands because when our hands held each other, it was a simple gesture that allowed me to hold the entire world, everything that I cared about and loved in my hand. I fell for her ears because they've heard things I've never told anyone. I fell for her because she knows me without even trying, she cares about me even though I'm broken and won't even care about myself. She loves me even when I can't and no one else does. She is the best person I know, she's the kindest, sweetest girl I've ever met. I fell for her and I'm lucky enough that she loved me back.

Oko Ninjah

I kissed her and the best thing happened - she gave in and kissed me back. For a moment, she forgot about her boyfriend. She forgot that there was a world around us. All that mattered was us. But then just as my arms wrapped around her waist, she pulled away completely. ‘I’m sorry’ she said and I smiled. 'Don’t be. I’m not’ She looked at my lips as I bit my bottom lip. 'He loves me’ I scoffed. 'But I love you. And you love me and he’s…’ she interrupted me. 'My boyfriend’ she looked away from me. I sighed deeply then closed rhe space between us. I held her in my arms and she turned to me. 'If you think I’m gonna give up just because you’re with him, just because you say he’s your boyfriend - you’re mistaken. I can wait' so I did and they broke up because well, she loved me as much as I love her.

Oko Ninjah

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Hurt me... Because if I'm gonna fall for you, I want it to hurt like hell so I know its real. Go and puncture a hole in my heart. Because I'll look in your eyes as I repair the damage and smile because you're worth the pain. So hurt me because if I'm gonna be hurt, I want it to be by someone who loves me as much as I love them.

Oko Ninjah

You're the first person I've ever loved. The first person whose kiss mattered to me. You're the first person I made promises to that I've actually kept. The first person who could get me to stop taking pills. You're the first person who has ever held my heart. You know what else you are? You're the first person to break it. You completely shattered me. You're the first person whose lies actually hurt me. You're the first person that taught me that lips could be deceitful. You're the first person whose eyes revealed heartbreaking stories of affairs. You are the first person who held me in their arms and made false promises that I hoped were true - even though I knew they weren't. You are the first person who turned my first love into my last love, into my only love. And you're the first person who made me realize how much easier lust was.

Oko Ninjah (firsts)

I miss you.. A little too much - who am I kidding? Every day hurts without you here.

Oko Ninjah (missing)

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It was two almost three in the morning when she texted me to come over to her place. Her and her douchebag boyfriend had another fight and she broke up with him again. She wanted to talk to me. So twenty minutes later, I was sitting across from her on the kitchen table, taking shots of whiskey and vodka. ‘Its over. I broke up with him. I’m sick of his shit’ I tossed back a shot of whiskey then as I poured another one said, ‘You should be. He’s a dick head’ I looked up at her and she scoffed at me. ‘Well, you like me. Thats the problem, you automatically don’t like him’ I laughed then tossed back another shot of whiskey as she did with a shot of vodka. ‘Yeah but I’m not the only one who thinks he’s a dick head. And just because I like you doesn’t mean my common sense disappeared. He treats you bad, its good you left’ She stood up and walked away. ‘You don’t know him, he wasn’t always like this’ I got up and my voice made her stop and face me. ‘But he’s like this now. And I know you. You’re better than him and I just want…’ she cut me off. 'Want me to be happy? I swear if you were gonna say thay, I’m gonna smack the shit out of you’ I exhaled sharply and I didn’t even realize I had closed the space between the two of us until I felt her hand graze against mine. My eyes met hers. 'No. I just want you to be with me. Whether you’re happy or mad or sad - I just want you…’ I leaned closer and our lips were inches away from touching. 'To be with me’ I backed away then looked at her. 'Its that easy? Just like that, I’m with you?’ I nodded. 'Yeah, just like that. I’m not like him and I’m not going to be like him’ I took her hand. 'But how do you know that?’ I sighed and just pressed my lips against her. At first it was just a peck, not much lip movement and then I pulled her closer to me and everything escalated and I could feel that her heartbeat matched mine and I knew I didn't like her - I loved her and as if she heard my thoughts. She pulled away from me then said, 'yeah, I love you too'

The mystery in me you love so dearly would make you see me differently if you knew what it was. Do not search for the answer to why I am how I am. Just kiss me and say you'll be there. Thats enough for me.

Oko Ninjah

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