If I could just kiss her another time. If I could just kiss her and not fuck it up, I think then things would change between us. If I could just silence the millions of thoughts running through my head and focus on how she makes me feel and encompass that in my lips maybe then she'd realize how much I want to be with her. Because it doesn't matter what I say, don't listen to what I say because I just bury my feelings with liquor and drugs and sex. But when I'm with her, I want to feel. I want the feelings she gives me, the butterflies in my stomach and the hiccups in my heart. I want to be with her but my words don't match the way I feel, they won't match because I bury them down. I don't like being vulnerable, I hate that. But I just think, I just feel that if I could just kiss her and somehow encompass my feelings in that kiss she would know how much I wanted her, she'd know how much she mattered.

Oko Ninjah (confession #678548009)