I was drinking and suddenly I missed you. And I forgot to forget you. I thought I had. But there I was, with a third of whiskey remaining in the bottle and there you were, pushed from the back of my mind to the front of my heart in neon colors. I missed the freckles on your cheeks and how you smelled of rain. And I missed eating pop tarts for breakfast with you and watching courage the cowardly dog reruns on boomerang and I missed how I didn't have to miss you... because I had you beside me. And now you were gone. I was alone in a room with a third of whiskey left and it wasn't nearly enough to shove you back to the deepest corners of my mind. But I tried. It didn't work. I missed you and I collapsed with the rush of feelings I kept hidden and I couldn't even protect myself because all my strength went to pretending my heart didn't ache for you.
And now it was shattering in front of me and all I could do was feel every piece of it crumble and miss you.
Oko Ninjah (forgot to forget)
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