I forgot... I fuck everything up, I always do. But I didn't want to fuck things up with her. And I was so focused on that - not fucking things up with her. So focused on being good enough, on being there when she needed me - that I forgot that she could still break my heart if she chose to. I was so focused on being as good as she was that I forgot that she could be as heartless as I am with everyone else... I forgot that she could shatter me like glass if she chose to... And she did.
Oko ninjah