#girl cheats on girl – @fckenjournal on Tumblr

There’s this girl that I like Yeah, I think that she’s cute She’s smart and she’s kind But she wouldn’t like me too See, where’s thoughtful and witty I’m just the opposite There’s no way she’d be with me She’s an artist and I, a decomposed sketch Where she’s beautiful and tender I’m just a rough mess I have nothing to give her And she deserves the best So I created some space I thought that would work But I kept seeing her face And my heart started to hurt But one day things took a turn She looked at me differently There’d be good news I’d learn When she leaned in and proceeded to kiss me My heart started to pound My body filled with heat I thought I’d fall to the ground When she told she loved me We were together for a while She was all I could think of She was the reason behind my smile She was my first love But one day, things took a turn She looked at me differently There’d be bad news I’d learn When she smiled and proceeded to lie to me I didn’t want it to be true I thought we were meant to be But she told me the truth When I found them fucking She said, it was just once But I knew it was a lie Because there were hidden texts And phone calls she would hide Eventually she spilled it all I was really hurt I wanted to throw her against the wall But I couldn’t even look at her She said she still loved me That we could make it work Her words didn’t mean a thing And my mind began to stir How could she cheat? And what did I do? But she said, ‘it was me’ 'And not you’ I couldn’t even think I couldn’t even breathe She said, 'it was nothing’ And that she still loved me And I still loved her But heart skipped a beat I remembered the hurt From what she just did to me I left a few hours later Months went by until I saw her I even tried to hate her But I couldn’t not love her What she did was fucked up It was unbearable pain But I don’t think it was enough Or maybe I’m insane? My heart still beats for her My body even craves - To love her, to feel the hurt To feel her thunder and her rain Maybe I am nuts That’s gotta be it I guess that’s just love If not, then I don’t give a shit

oko ninjah (shit poem #8)