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. recently lost everything and everyone i ever cared and loved . saw a sign and now I’m running with it . wasted time and wasted space . but I need to find a way out of this place .

I’m sorry that I miss you I’m sorry that I’m scared I’m sorry that I’m a sad fucking puppy Whenever you’re not here I try not to feel this I try not to care But when I try to turn away My heart whispers to me, “Don’t you fucking dare” So, it’s not my fault I love you so much It’s not my fault I’m like this It’s not my fault my heart melts Each time that we kiss I’m sorry if it bothers you That I’m addicted to your lips But there is something laced in them That makes me turn into an addict We don’t choose who we fall for It’s hard enough for me to pick a rose But my heart dove in with you And I’m glad I’m the one you chose It was a simple conversation One that touch my soul If the world is black and white Then why is it you’re shining like gold?

Oko Ninjah (I’m a sad fucking puppy without my wife - shitty poem)

I want to kiss your fucking lips while I'm between your legs and you're pulling me against you. Like, fucking hell... I want you. And, I want to get lost in you.

Oko Ninjah (confessions from my amateur heart)

There's something about her lips

I honestly can't explain

And the way she moans 'fuck'

Makes me feel some type of way

There's something about her lips

I swear they have to be laced

Because when she pulls me against her body

It drives me fucking insane

There's something about her lips

They're more addictive than nicotine

Because when I'm not around her

I fidget like I'm high on caffeine

But there's something about her lips

Maybe I need some help

Because every time that we kiss

It's difficult to keep my hands to myself

Oko Ninjah (confessions from my amateur heart)

You do not even understand the way she makes me feel. Fuck... This feels like I'm floating. This feels like a dream. But I'm wide awake.

Oko Ninjah (dream feels)

She makes my head spin. As if looking at her is equivalent to the first time I did acid. She makes me nervous. As if I’m thirteen again and she’s the first girl I’m ever going to kiss. Except she’s not. Except that she’s not a girl at all. She’s a woman. And yeah, I’ve been with women before. I’ve been with girls. But she is different. Because I look at her and it’s like, just that look… That look is enough. There’s no need for speaking or touching or even mouthing words.. I’m already there. I already like her. And that’s enough. It’s enough because it is incredibly dangerous for me to like someone let alone her. And I don’t want to fall for her but I can already feel myself starting to trip. Hell… I’ve already fallen.

Oko Ninjah (falling…fallen)

You know, I can’t see myself just hooking up with her. I really can’t. What I can see is me loving her. And I don’t know how that’s even possible when I’ve never been in love before. But I can see it happening. I can see us in the same house, in the same bed, waking up and drinking coffee and having breakfast. Like, I can see her in her morning beauty, with drool on the corner of her lips with a hint of annoyance in her eyes because it’s too early. She’s not like other women I’ve been with. I don’t want just sex… I have feelings for her. That’s the difference. I don’t just want her body, I want everything that comes with it, too. But uh… Feelings and speaking on how I feel, it’s really difficult for me. Like, I couldn’t really tell this to her face. I’d have to not look at her or write it down in a letter or text it to her. I could never tell her that her smile is embedded in my thoughts and it flashes in my head whenever I need a pick-me-up or that when I hear her voice my body heats up like a campfire or that kissing her is one of my goals this year and I know that’s pathetic but it is. I want to kiss her. I want to love her. I want to make her weak and give her strength and I want to make sure she’s always safe - I can’t just hook up with her. Fuck… Why are feelings so fucked? And then I’m fucked up too so add the feelings which are fucked also equals to… Oh, fucked to the millionth power times infinity. But damn… They don’t seem like they’re going anywhere. These feelings are here and it feels real. The only thing missing is her.

Oko Ninjah (feelings)

Yesterday I wasn't doing good. It was a really shit day... Until I left and went to this girl's house. As soon as we got into her bedroom she pulled me behind the neck and kissed me. It was eager and lustful, passionate and well... I took off my shirt and undid the zipper on her jacket. I was in my bra. She was braless. Our lips stayed on each others and our tongues played tag with each other. Our hands found their way to each others breasts. We made our way to her computer desk. She shut her laptop then placed it on the chair then I slid it away. Then I lifted her so she was sitting on the desk and we continued kissing. I slipped my hand into her shorts and into her panties and my fingers found her clit. Fuck, was she wet. It was like a warm puddle between her legs. I removed my hand then I undid her shorts. I got down on my knees and kissed my way up her left leg and when I reached her inner thigh, I bit gently. Then I moved her panties to the side and leaned forward and licked her pussy. She let out a moan. So I licked some more then I slipped in my index and middle finger. I slowly pumped them but that wasn't good enough. 'Harder... Fuck me harder...' she moaned. And so I did. I pumped my fingers faster and deeper. And I kept my tongue on her clit, licking and sucking until finally, 'Uhhh, uhhh, ugh, fu-uuuck. Uhhh' she came in my mouth. But I continued licking and pumping my fingers. Her moans became squeals and one of her hands locked into my hair while the other dug its nails into my shoulder. And the beautiful orgasm that came over her while she was cumming; made her shudder and quiver and she was smiling and her chest was heaving... It was fucking beautiful. I removed my fingers from her pussy and stopped licking until her orgasm was finished. Then when it was over, she lifted my face to hers and kissed me. Then she got off of the desk then pulled me to her bed. She laid down first then I did. She kissed me then undid my bra. She bit both of my nipples then licked them. Then her hand slipped into my shorts then into my panties. She started rubbing, like a gentle DJ. But she knows I hate gentle... She was teasing me.. For like a minute and that was enough. Then she started rubbing faster and just as I was about to cum, she stopped. I felt her pulling at my shorts. She was taking them off and then off went my panties. She laid between my thighs and licked my pussy like she was trying to get to the center of a tootsie pop. And fucking hell, did she get to the middle. I came and then I kissed her. Then she leaned over to her dresser and pulled out a 7in dildo, 'I want you to fuck me with it' She handed it to me then got back on the bed. She laid down and started to play with herself. I told her to get on her stomach. And she did. Then I told her to spread her legs. And she did. I leaned forward and licked her pussy until I felt her legs twitch. And then I slipped the dildo inside. I went slow at first but deep so she could feel it completely. Then I went faster. In, out, in, out, repeat. But then I saw her hands grip the bed sheets and her back started to arch. I lifted her on her knees, with me behind her, my right hand pumping the dildo and my left wrapped around her breasts, her right hand on my left and her left pulling me into a kiss. Her body rocking against the dildo in my right hand, each rock of her body synched with each pump of the dildo. It seemed like forever but it was worth it because she moaned like there were microphones in the room with us, she fell on her stomach and laughed and smiled breathlessly. The dildo had slipped out when she came, so I tossed it on the bed behind me. As she lay there breathlessly, smiling, I turned her over to her back and slid between her legs. I slowly started licking. Teasing her with each flick of my tongue. Then as her hand went behind head to guide me, I licked faster and sucked her pussy like I was draining a caprisun until she came in my mouth. And then I licked her clean, nearly dry. Then she pulled me to her face and we kissed for maybe six or seven minutes. And then it was done. My mind was clear, she came, I came. We got dressed then she drove me back to where I'm staying at. I like that I know girls who just want sex because that's what I'm about right now. Thats like, all I'm good for, really.

Oko Ninjah (last night)

That moment when you're eating a girl's pussy and she squirts and she's all wet between her legs. Two things can happen. She can clean herself up or you can lick her clean. Well, when I eat, lets just say I lick my plate clean.

Oko Ninjah (last night)

It was at a party. I just went there for the drinks and weed. And I got them. But before I left, I met her. I met a woman who was going to change my life and I wasn't even prepared for it. We instantly... Disliked each other. She was this brilliant, gorgeous, strong minded person. She had so much to say about the economy and I don't even have a job. She was all about structure and rules and I went with the flow without a fuck to give. And we let each other know that. I made a comment about a cover of Bieber's Let Me Love You by Maia Mitchell and said it was better than the original. She called me a prick and I called her a Belieber bitch. And it went on like that for most of the night. We called each other names and made stupid comments towards each other. But we both smoked weed and we both drank whiskey. Somehow our hands found their way to each other and she said something about my dimples that made me lick my lips. And soon enough, they were against hers. And our hands were all over each other. We whispered the names we called each other earlier but now the names held seduction and lust in them. We didn't agree on a lot. To he honest, we disagreed more than we did agree. But we compromised with each other and learned from one another. She was and still is one of the best people I've ever known. Things didn't last long between us. The disagreeing caught up to us and we went from compromising to complaining and the fucking quickly turned to fighting. We ended things before we hated each other. I think about her a lot. I always wonder what it would be like if we stayed together. If it would work out or if our break up was inevitable. But I'll never forget that night. I was just interested in getting some drinks, some weed. And I left with a brilliant, gorgeous, strong minded woman who will always haunt my thoughts.

Oko Ninjah (haunting)

It was at a party. I just went there for the drinks and weed. And I got them. But before I left, I met her. I met a woman who was going to change my life and I wasn't even prepared for it. We instantly... Disliked each other. She was this brilliant, gorgeous, strong minded person. She had so much to say about the economy and I don't even have a job. She was all about structure and rules and I went with the flow without a fuck to give. And we let each other know that. I made a comment about a cover of Bieber's Let Me Love You by Maia Mitchell and said it was better than the original. She called me a prick and I called her a Belieber bitch. And it went on like that for most of the night. We called each other names and made stupid comments towards each other. But we both smoked weed and we both drank whiskey. Somehow our hands found their way to each other and she said something about my dimples that made me lick my lips. And soon enough, they were against hers. And our hands were all over each other. We whispered the names we called each other earlier but now the names held seduction and lust in them. We didn't agree on a lot. To he honest, we disagreed more than we did agree. But we compromised with each other and learned from one another. She was and still is one of the best people I've ever known. Things didn't last long between us. The disagreeing caught up to us and we went from compromising to complaining and the fucking quickly turned to fighting. We ended things before we hated each other. I think about her a lot. I always wonder what it would be like if we stayed together. If it would work out or if our break up was inevitable. But I'll never forget that night. I was just interested in getting some drinks, some weed. And I left with a brilliant, gorgeous, strong minded woman who will always haunt my thoughts.

Oko Ninjah (haunting)

When we first met, you would drive me crazy. You were always around and you always had to put in your two cents. You would tease me about the girls I was hooking up with and you'd call me an idiot because I'm was idiot sometimes. I'm still an idiot. But then it happened so often that I expected you to be there. And when you weren't - I missed you. When I saw you again, I realized I didn't ever want to miss you again. I just want you around. All the time. I want to hear your annoyingly enticing voice and see your goofy gorgeous smile. I want you to be around because when you weren't there I felt an emptiness inside of me where you belonged. I don't want to feel that again. I ended up falling for you because we knew how to get on each others nerves but then we realized we liked that about each other. You always challenge me. Especially when I'm being an idiot. It bothered me before but I needed that. I still do. I think I always will. Because I need you - I love you.

Oko Ninjah (you're what I need)

I'm in love with her. It's a fact. Because when she smiles, when she's laughing, it's like all the planets and stars are aligned and it's the greatest feeling in the world to see the person you're in love with just being happy. I'm in love with her. It's a fact. Because when she's upset, when she cries, it's like a knife being plunged into my chest, slowly twisting. It just breaks my heart to know that something or someone has punctured her heart and caused her pain. It's a horrible feeling to see the person you're in love feel so hurt. I'd do anything to make her happy and I'd do anything not to make her cry. Because she is my heart and I want to be with her for as long as she'll let me. And I want to keep it that way. Because I love her. It's a fact.

Oko Ninja (1am confessions)

"I need you to leave..." her words hit me like a brick. I lifted my gaze from the ground and our eyes met. Then she finished, "Before I do something that's gonna hurt your girlfriend" I was confused. "Girlfriend?" She nodded slowly then tried to hide the tears that were in her eyes. "I know about that girl, Kawehi" I smiled then quickly withdrew it because her tears had dropped down her cheeks. "Kawehi, the girl with brown hair around your height with a diamond behind her neck?" she nodded. "Is not my girlfriend, not even a friend..." I stepped closer to her and continued, "My mail's being sent to her and hers to mine, we keep exchanging mail" I stopped taking steps when there were four maybe five steps between us. "Really?" She said, wiping her face. I took another step, "Yes" I took another step and my hand grazed hers. "And what's that thing you're gonna do?" She was smiling now, blushing too. "I think it was.. This?" I lifted her chin and kissed her. I kissed her because it was our first, because she wanted me to, because I wanted me to - I kissed her because in that moment, it was the best way to let her know how I felt. Then she pulled away and we smiled and laughed because we were a little disoriented with our lips aching for more. "Yeah, something like that" And that's how it happened, how I became hers officially.

Oko Ninjah (how it happened)

You don’t understand the power of her kiss. It takes over me. It knocks me out and sets me down all at once. Her lips are full of magic. That’s all I can think of to describe it. Soft yet rough, tender and sweet, eager yet slow, teasing and biting… She pulls me into a whirlpool of emotions and I love being lost in her. She’s definitely worth the headache.

Oko Ninjah

They say it's a beautiful thing, to be in love and not have that love reciprocated. That's bullshit. It is torture. You have all this love for this one person and you're forced to watch them love someone else, kiss someone else. It's like being shot with an arrow and having it slowly twist and push deeper into your chest. You know the pain will stop if you remove the arrow, that the pain will stop if you stop loving them but it's so hard because all you know is that love - all you know is that pain and you'd rather live with it than know what it is to not have it at all. I guess it's beautiful torture then.

Oko Ninjah (beautiful torture)

She's fierce and incredibly beautiful. She reeks of coffee and cigarettes, winter fresh gum with a hint of Heineken. And... I am crazy about her. She is embedded in my head.

Oko Ninjah (her pt. 3)

I kiss you because you mean something to me - you're everything to me. Everything I love, the most important person to me. And kissing you makes sense. It makes perfect sense because I use my lips to tell you I love you, so why not leave invisible marks on your body?

Oko Ninjah (kissing you)

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