I just wish I could talk to her

I’ve had both good and bad news and she’s the only person I’ve been wanting to tell them about

I’ve been texting but she just sends pictures of the dogs

Which I really appreciate and love because god I miss them too

I just want to talk to her

Hear about her day

Hear about her dreams

Her newest meditation that I think doesn’t work on me but she wants me to try because maybe it could

I am so sorry that I fucked up

Maybe I got too comfortable

Maybe I just failed at your expectations

Because I just did too much

I just am a lot

I just wanted so much more than 5 years

More than 50 years

I wanted forever, the rest of our lives

4 months…

And I haven’t seen her

I miss her so much

My chest physically tightens

No, really

It feels like a cramp under my left breast

But it’s my own fault

I just…

Don’t want us to end

We’re endgame

I still believe that

Could this just be a blip?

A second chance in the making?

Could this just be the thing that makes us stronger and closer?

No…

How can it be?

I’m not getting any response

My lips still belong to her

They’re stained with the touch of hers

I miss the days we couldn’t stop kissing

Now we’re not even together

My heart still beats in her direction

Looking for a place to land

But there’s no ocean in Montana or Vegas

There’s no room for me to stand

I miss when we couldn’t go hours without speaking

We missed each other that much

I know you’ve moved on

But sadly, I am still in love

Oko Ninjah (honestly)

So Cold...

Oh, when you told me you'd leave... I feel like I couldn't breathe... My aching body fell to the floor...