I have always been "chubby", (around a size 12 since I hit puberty) but in the past few years I've gone up to a size 16. I like the way I look, but I feel physically uncomfortable, and I think I would feel better at a lower weight. my problem is that I don't know how to reconcile my desire to be body positive with my desire to lose weight. I feel like I'm giving into societal pressures or something. What are your thoughts?
I think it's important to look at where your desire to lose weight is coming from. What exactly makes you feel physically uncomfortable? Do you feel weak or tired? What exactly is the issue? If you're feeling tired or weak, and you feel it's because of your weight, you might consider looking at your eating and/or exercise habits. Often times issues we equate to our weight are just our poor choices in eating and/or lack of proper exercise. Realize, that weight and health are two separate things. You can be fat and healthy, just as you can be thin and unhealthy. I personally am a LOT bigger than you are and I feel very good in my body. I'm also very healthy according to my doctor. But I also focus on eating healthy and exercising regularly and have for years. Even though my weight hasn't really changed, my health has improved greatly.
Instead of focusing on what size you wear or how much you weigh I recommend focusing instead on healthy habits such as nutritious eating and increasing your exercise level/fitness level.
In the end, your choices are your choices. A focus on weight loss is your choice, but I believe it's important to come to terms with where those feelings and desires are coming from. We live in a society that bombards us daily with the messages that thin = good and that fat = bad, none of us are immune to those messages or their effects. I believe one of the most important things we can do in this life is develop self love - our happiness and even the way we treat others are all effected by the way we feel about ourselves and our bodies. And loving yourself, contrary to what the media would like us to believe, does not come from a dress size.
In the mean time, I recommend looking up some info on HAES (Health at Every Size).
Be good to yourself! (: