was talking endverse with @sketchydean
OKAY LISTEN WHAT IF 09!DEAN BY SOME MIRACLE GOT OVER HIS SHIT FOR LIKE HALF A FUCKING DEUCE OF A SECOND like /just enough to let a /small small crack appear in his dam but it's...it's enough and Cas's lips taste like nicotine and god knows what else but there is plush and there is /give to them and he /moans into it but Cas? Cas is /frozen in place and that throws up ALL sorts of signals that Dean fuCKed up™ so he backs off slowly ignoring the way that the bulge in his jeans is edging on painful and he looks at Cas who's- oh //fuck he's /crying and Dean is 18 different kinds of panic and sinking hearts because 'fuck Cas I'm so sorry I didn't-' "You've never kissed me before"