here’s a dumb sappy undertale-related story for you:
im having kind of a rough day, I woke up at 2pm and felt like a gross sad sloth. major depression, as usual, is always trying to drown me in an apathetic fog.
but recently when I have a day where I feel like im about to fall off the wagon and quit trying, I put my “Determination” on (actually just a cheap little plastic pixel heart necklace) and tell myself that so long as I have it on, it’s not possible for me to make bad choices or give up. and I don’t.
i save it only for my worst days, and when I wear that heart I think very hard about all the things i care about and all the stuff im fighting for. i try very hard to remember how far i’ve come, how hard i’ve worked and just how many times i’ve gotten back up again in order to survive all the way to 26.
when I put my Determination on, it’s a visual reminder that I’m so much stronger than the world that has tried so very hard to wipe me out. It’s a visual reminder that my body and spirit can be beaten down, but my hopes and dreams can never be broken. Not so long as I keep them safe and protected within one little symbol… an ordinary, common little symbol that’s come to mean so much to me.
it’s no secret that I’ve always been a cheesy bastard, but it’s about more than my attachment to Undertale–visual reminders can really be a powerful tool, and I urge anybody reading this to try it if they’re struggling. find something to wear or put on that is your power, your “Determination,” something that can temporarily make you a superhero while you have it on. pick out a symbol or something that has deep personal meaning to you and make it your power, focus your very essence into it, and kick ass when you don that thing. you’ll start to associate being at your best with that item, and when used correctly, putting it on can become like flipping a switch.
now get out there and become your own superhero!! i’m going to try hard too.