reminder: everything is okay no matter what your mind tries to tell you
today will be another opportunity to improve
reminder to friends: the ferocity with which you hate yourself does not invalidate or affect the love I have for you
How to love yourself
thank you to @astrasperas, this work is solely thanks to them
Breathe in. Know that somewhere in the world a wave is rolling onto the shoreline In that exact moment. You are it. Breathe in. Know that you are connected To every blade of grass in a stream Every wind that blows Every tear that falls. Breathe in. Know that you are everything you need Everything you want Everything you could possibly ask for. Breathe in. Force air into your bloodstream Make your cells come /alive. Breathe in. Look at the world Breathe in. Feel the moon slip across the sky. Breathe in. Feel the love you have Inside yourself Yourself Breathe in. Stop. Feel yourself Feel every comet that squeaks across the sky Feel the safety you have been granted Feel the /adventure you have in front of you. Breathe in. Let /love in Let the world in Breathe in. Know that you are Irish sunlight and smoky glass and you are the waves lapping on a Nigerian shoreline Breathe in. You are adequate you are /magnificent you are the world watching itself Breathe in. Let your eyes see the death of the sun And watch it rise again. If it does so You will too. You destroy You create A tiny tiny God. Breathe in. You are every pain that has ever been felt Every timeline Every burning muscle of everything that has ever existed You are one. You are one. Breathe in. You curl And unfurl Breathe in. You are cold hands And clammy feet And nervous twitches at a first date. Breathe in. You are complete in yourself You are. Breathe in. You are A rush. Breathe in. You are kindness and softness and fear. You are. Breathe in. You will.
Breathe in. You are wings Across the sky And hooves striking the ground. Breathe in. You are love. Breathe in. You feel. Breathe in. Life is you. Breathe in. And you are life. Breathe in. You are age and youth and forest blanketing across the world Breathe in. You are a cat's purr And a grandmother's soothed heart. Breathe in. You are the plush feel of a carpet sinking in between your toes And a cold cold night. Breathe in. You are the warm ache of home. Breathe in. You are every injustice ever suffered. Breathe in. You are every stranger's kindness. Breathe in. You are Stardust, Truly Just see. Breathe in. You are inspiration In it is purest rawest form Breathe in. You are a gift a blink an eternity. Breathe in. You are a touch A sound a smile you are what you are to others you are by yourself you are you are you are Breathe in.
Breathe in. Death is not the end. Breathe in. You are a child's cry A stretching of lips A jubilant woop An excited swallow. And the egg in its nest. Breathe in. You are where you are. You are here. Breathe in. Step forward move back Dance- they call it. Breathe in. You are clasped fingers and a decision to make. Breathe in. You are faltering chit chat And hallway silence Breathe in. You are A Change Breathe in. You are So much So Breathe In. You are a photograph in a moving picture. Breathe in. You are a small hill and a memory. Breathe in. You are long fights and knicked pencils. Breathe in. You are a pen cap on the ground. Breathe in. You are drifting drifting clouds move slowly Breathe in. You are hurricanes and monsters under your bed and stockinged feet Breathe in. You are living. My dear. My dearest. It is nice to see you again. Breathe in.
Breathe in. You are everything. You are everything Breathe out. Close your eyes. And breathe again.
#self love#highermagic#whelvenwings#candiedstars#coffeeisoxygen#manya#aria#itch#meg#maria#sann#artie#gydo#dani#haki#akiko#joker#as much as i'd love to tag this my words this's been inspired fullheartedly off astrasperas' works that are woven out of tapestries of stars#please read 'breathe lightly' it has utterly changed my life and i keep embarrassing myself by creating more off of it/pinches bridge ofnose#my inspired writing
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Some fanfiction writers are just so incredibly talented
do you ever just sigh because someone who you love lives so far away from you
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I may not be the most interesting person but I'm totally up for a chat anytimee!
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and responding slowly is totally fucking fine I'm just literally thrilled whenever we get to chat I'm just
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In the audiofile above you hear two snippets of the Sherlock Soundtrack (“War” and “Pink”). It is John’s theme. The first time it plays when John wakes up from a nightmare (“War”).
The characteristic melody is played by piano in G minor and has a distinctive motive of four notes (see mid0nz’s meta for more insights). I added the second part (“Pink”) to show you the “official" ending of John’s theme where the chords rise along the scale of D minor. (This figure is often used in other Sherlock scores for very dramatic scenes, sometimes resolving in death. Perhaps I will revisit this in a future post). Choosing a minor key for John’s theme strengthens the viewer’s impression of John’s depressed and sad mental state.
When I decided to give the music in Sherlock more attention, I was so overwhelmed that I chose to start with the obvious. And that’s John’s theme. For me it plays a unique role in the musical world of Sherlock because it’s the only theme that’s continously played by piano. And in my experience piano themes are often really unique in the whole range of a (movie) soundtrack with predominantly fully orchestrated pieces. They stick up as played by a single instrument against pieces played by 30 and more instruments in an orchestra. And that’s why piano themes are often used to intensify the intimacy of a scene. (I first experienced this consciously in Titanic: The piano version of Rose’s theme when Jack draws her).
So my interpretation of John’s theme is this: The piano played tune in a minor key shows the viewer John’s deep emotions like sadness, vulnerability and perhaps the hurt that love can cause. In this way the viewer is - in contrast to Sherlock - directly linked via the music to John’s emotional state. The music helps us to be sure how John feels in many scenes. And that’s why I’ll definitly write more about the magnifiscent use of John’s theme in every single season. <3
But for now I will finish this post by showing you how John’s theme is linked to the other two outstanding themes. The Main theme (title theme) and what’s called by the composers the Hero’s Theme. (My piano version of the key elements:)
John’s theme (beginning):
Main (=title) theme (bar 9 to the end):
Hero’s theme (first time: bar 11ff., several times again and at the end):
What we can see and hear: John’s theme and the Hero’s theme are combined in the main theme. If you want to, you can read this as the musical conjunction of John and Sherlock. (As this is the title theme of the show I’ll leave the further Johnlock interpretation to you…). And if you understand the main theme as Sherlock’s theme, then you could say that it integrates his heart (John) and his mind (crime solving=”the game”).
[Last note: the notations above are based on the piano arrangement of Anthony Weeden. I kept the notation in A minor for visual simplicity (=lack of accidentals), but’d like to clarify that John’s theme is played in G minor, the main theme in A minor and the hero’s theme in C minor when they are first introduced – please correct me if I’m wrong).
ETA: See replies for further thoughts regarding aspects of music theory.
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when all your favorite people are online
#fu ck gin#testimonials#p fucking much though#im so happy though bc like even when this happens my inbox doesnt get flooded anymoer uwu#it's so nice to be able to keep up uwu#lesse...#fave ppl...#var#gemma#meg#jen#jenna#quercusrubra#uhhhh#coffeeisoxygen#uhhhhhhhh....who else who else#i greatly enjoy lost-shoe's presence though they don't enjoy mine roflmaoooo#lesse....uhmm....#that's all off the toppa my head i guess
A Study in Pink: a Humorous Summary
SUDDENLY GUNS
Viewers: fuck where did that come from -
John: nightmares oh god
John:
John:
John: I fucking hate my life.
Therapist: Have you been writing in your therupatic diary like I told you to?
John: MY EYES AREN'T GLISTENING WITH THE GHOST OF MY PAST
Mike: hey gurl hey
John: shitit'sthatguydon'tmakeeyecontact
Mike: HEY GURL HEY
John: Ohhh hi didn't see you there -
Mike: LOL GURL SO HOW U BIN, HOW'S LIFE?
John: I'm thirty-five, single, unemployed, skint, and I've got anxiety problems of some description and a limp.
Mike: GURL THAT'S SO RAVEN
John: what
Mike: what
John:
Mike: let me hook you up, man
~MEANWHILE~
Sherlock: I love the smell of dead bodies in the morning
Molly: I love your face
Sherlock: Yes, thank you, I would like you to serve me some coffee, how thoughtful
Molly:
Molly: ok.
~UPSTAIRS~
John: What are these new fang-dangly things they didn't have them in my day
Mike: that's a computer, John
Sherlock: Mike give me your phone
Mike: Do you know how at wildlife parks and stuff they don't let you feed the animals partly so that the animals don't get reliant on being fed by humans and then stop foraging for their own food?
Sherlock:
John: use mine.
Mike: This is John Watson. havethesexwithhim.
John and Sherlock: what
Mike: what
Sherlock: -text it- Afghanistan or Iraq?
John: the fuck -
Sherlock: smoothly interrupting you to casually accept fangirl-made coffee
Sherlock: hey molly
Sherlock: thank you for offering to make me this delicious coffee
Sherlock: -sips- mnn, tangy
Sherlock: you look ugly without makeup
Molly:
Sherlock: bye
Molly: ok.
Sherlock: We should be flatmates
John: what
Sherlock: I'll meet you at the flat ok
John: what
Sherlock: Goodbye Mr Army Doctor from afghanistan
Sherlock: say hi to your alcoholic brother for me
Sherlock: nice psychosomatic limp you got there
John: WHAT
Sherlock: Sherlock Holmes, 221b Baker St, exit stage left
Mike: ain't he so raven
~LATER~
Sherlock: Check out the flat ain't it pretty don't you like it John, you must like it, I can clean up, look I'm cleaning up say you'll live with me say it
Mrs Hudson: You guys are such a cute couple
John: what, no
Lestrade: There's been a murder
Sherlock: HOORAY
Sherlock: come and see dead bodies with me, John
John: I DON'T KNOW WHAT IS HAPPENING BUT I THINK I LIKE IT
~CRIME SCENE~
Sally: freak
Sherlock: lol you're blowing one of the forensic team
Anderson: fuk u shercock u dick
Sherlock: i know you are i said you are but what am i
Body: pink
Sherlock: John what's your professional doctor's opinion.
John: ... yup she's dead.
Sherlock: DEDUCTING
John:
John: amazing brilliant fantastic
Sherlock: omg relyy
John: boy u mighty fine
Lestrade: I'm standing in the room still
Sherlock: lol you're all idiots I am the only one who sees the truth
Lestrade and John: what
Sherlock: laterz
~AND THEN~
Phones: ringing
security cameras: spinning
John: the fuck is this
Mycroft: hey gurl
John: the fuck are you
Mycroft: I am suggestively frightening and I'm sherlock's arch enemy, my name begins with M, can you guess who I am
John: modesty?
Mycroft: gurl I like you
Sherlock: URGENT URGENT COME HOME AT ONCE THERE IS AN URGENCY
~221B~
Sherlock: Pass me my phone.
John: you
John: you texted me to
Sherlock: and send a text please k thanks
John: Fuck you sideways, man
Sherlock: love you too
John: what
Sherlock:
Sherlock: come to dinner?
~ANGELO'S~
Angelo: you're such a cute gay couple
John: what, no
Angelo: So very cute and gay
John: no, sherlock, say something, tell him we're not gay
Angelo: I'll get some candles to set the mood to SEXY TIMES
John: NO DON'T GET CANDLES
Angelo: YOU'RE GAY
John: Why do I have an ominous feeling that this is going to happen again? Like reverse deja vu?
Sherlock: Keep an eye out for murderers 'kay
John: So er ... got a girlfriend? Or a ... boyfriend?
Sherlock:
Sherlock: uh ... John ... look, it's very flattering and all but I'm taken
John: no -
Sherlock: My work is a jealous lover
John: no - what? I don't even want to consider how a relationship with investigating dead bodies works - no, I wasn't - no - I'M NOT GAY!
Sherlock: right.
John: right.
Sherlock: okay then.
John: yes.
Sherlock: SUSPECT AT TWO O'CLOCK
~ROOFTOP CAR CHASE~
John: shit that was funny
Sherlock: I know right
Lestrade: DRUGS BUST PARTY AT 221B
Sherlock: THE FUCK IS GOING ON
John: wait drugs lol what
Sherlock: ~gaze~
John: ~gaze~
Lestrade: THERE ARE PEOPLE STANDING IN THIS ROOM
Sherlock: DEDUCTING
Mrs Hudson: TAXI
Lestrade: MOBILE
Everyone: NOISE
Sherlock: SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU DICKS
Cabbie: come away with me, in the night
Sherlock: ok
~DRIVING~
Cabbie: CLEVER SHIT
Sherlock: BORING
Cabbie: pick a pill any pill
Sherlock: CLEVERER SHIT
Cabbie: pick a pill anyway
Sherlock: sounds like fun
Cabbie: SUCKER -
John: I SAVE YOU
Cabbie: /dead
Sherlock: that's so raven
~LATER~
Lestrade: tell me the things
Sherlock: look at my fucking ugly blanket
Lestrade: oh jesus
Sherlock: heyyyy john
John: heyyyyyy Sherlock
Sherlock: you saved me
John: for a minute there I thought my princess was in another castle
Sherlock: what
John: what
Mycroft: hey gurl
Sherlock: fuck off bro
John: why didn't you tell me he was your brother?
Sherlock: because he smells
Mycroft: you're so mean
Sherlock: lol John let's go get Chinese
John: ok
~BITCHIN SLOW WALK~
YEEEEAAAAHHHHHH
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What might we deduce about his heart?
#fascinating that you chose to use the one thing that sherlock has no knowledge about for this...#graphics#sh#hc#sherlock was made fun of for his astronomy knowledge in grade school#and wiped it out of his mind palace afterwards#it took getting to know john for him to get comfortable with it again#my tags#my hc#belen#ow now i want to write that#twl#NO WE HAVE TOO MUCH TO WRITE AS IS STAHP IT#writing group#coffeeisoxygen
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"Look at us both."
thebrownette
Look at John. Look at his eyebrows, look at his eyes, LOOK at his MOUTH HANGING OPEN. He is just is AWE of Sherlock. This is it. It’s the apex of his Visible Pining.
#im done#if you look up fucking awestruck in the dictionary#you'll find no words just john watson's fucking face#fuck me sideways#johnlock#evidence#how the fuck#do you look at this#and go bromance#do you look at anyone besides me like that#bc i'd like to fucking know :p#belen#writing group#coffeeisoxygen
Desperately unspoken
don-gately
"I love you too fucking much and it makes me die inside", that’s what they would say
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BABE I MISS UR FACE IN MY FACE WE NEED TO HAVE MORE CONVERSATIONS AND THINGS //WRITHES AHPPILY IN SEAT AND HUGS YOU THIS IS UR REMINDER THAT YOU'RE AMAAAAAAAAAAAAZINGGGGGGGGGGGGG
BAE IF ANYONE IS AMAZING THAT WOULD BE YOU
I’m sorry I’ve been so silent I’ve been arranging for (if) I end up deleting my blog (which, probably not, since my dash has been calm for days now) and trying to catch up on my to-read-list of metas (which, is. H U GE)
and also I’m trying to write up my thoughts on the train scene in TEH that you asked for!
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BBC Sherlock fanart by ののすけ
oops my fave people suddenly rbd/liked stuff <3
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