"wait, are my eyes open or closed right now?"

When I was kid, I asked my grandpa once if he’d ever killed any Germans in the war. He wouldn’t answer. He said that was grown up stuff, so I asked if the Germans ever tried to kill him. But he got real quiet. He said he was dead the minute he stepped into enemy territory. Every day he woke up and told himself, “Rest in peace; now get up and go to war.” And then after a few years of pretending he was dead he made it out alive. That’s the trick of it, I think. We do what we need to do and then we get to survive.