it haunts me every goddamn day that Bela died letting Dean believe she killed her parents for money and spent her last moments letting him spew his vindictive holier-than-thou bile at her bc she thought she Deserved it (after paralleling him for a season!!!) bc she committed the cardinal sin of Supernatural-world and desecrated the sanctity of the Family Unit and then at the last possible second Kripke's like btw she did it bc her Father (!) was sexually abusing her. and she didn't even pull the trigger she was just talked into it by a demon when she was 14 years old!!!!! and she just couldn't bring herself to tell them. those righteous men. monster-hunters. justice-bringers. but what do you do if your Father (!!!) is the monster. who do you run to who can you tell. 'you wouldn't understand. no one did. never mind.' and they never find out they just never. find out. never mind all the times she looked Dean in the eyes and said you can't judge me, we are the same. he never has to think about or interrogate THAT again. the idea of the Father (!!!!!) as a sexual threat just hangs outside the narrative unsaid and unsayable. oh well looks like that arc is wrapped up . now Bela's in hell. forever. ok. jesus fucking christ.
