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#we’re getting a tattoo in exactly a week. it carries a lot of meaning for the host of the system hence why he’s the one to decide to get it#This design means a lot to myself as well. While this body will likely always feel more his than mine.. This action means so much to me.#I keep saying this all ‘’means’’ something because I really don’t know how else to verbalize it.#I can’t explain why it’s profound to me or to us. I know why it is for him. Does that make sense? I don’t know.#I think maybe I understand him more than I understand myself.#But even this action.. getting the tattoo.. it’s only one of many things I’ve noticed about him lately that are different somehow.#I guess he could say the same about me. I don’t know. We see more of each other in each other these days.#Things are so blurry. Even between himself and the others. I don’t know if this is integration or what it is. It’s just. different.#I don’t even know why I’m posting this here. I’m never active but I suppose this is my only space to speak like this.#No one’s really listening but perhaps that’s part of the comfort of it.