Figured I'd start off my symptom tracking! Of pregnancy!! EEEEEE!!!!

One thing I've found interesting so far is I am FAR less anxious already (all of 4 days in lol). It all just feels like "Oh, this again..." and I roughly know what to expect. One thing I'm purposefully not doing unless instructed to by my doctor is go cold turkey off my Lexapro like a straight up crazy person. I was reading through my old posts from my last pregnancy, and - u ok, 5-years-ago me?!?!? What the hell were you thinking girl?????

My favorite part so far is seeing how excited Emma is to be a big sister. 🥰 She is STOKED. Like, I'm obviously excited but she is over the moon, and I'm over the moon for her. She's wanted a sibling basically since she was old enough to talk about it, and so far seeing her joy is my favorite part, hands down. ❤️❤️

So, funny story....18 months, a diagnosis of unexplained secondary infertility, and a round of Clomid later....I finally got a positive test on Wednesday!! 😭😭😭😭

I literally could not even believe it. I don't even take pregnancy tests anymore really because I'm so sick of looking at negative tests. The only reason I tested was because I had started spotting heavily Saturday (which was 10dpo which really isn't unusual at all for me in my usual cycle), continued Sunday and into Monday, and then just - stopped. And that IS weird for me. So I took the test first thing in the morning Wednesday, and at about 2-3 minutes it looked CLEARLY negative, so I angrily tossed it. Then at 11, my dumbass decided to do a "hmmmm never hurts to double check! 🤡) dumpster dive, even though I know damn well enough to not read tests after the window. Sure enough, there were now two very pink lines. What the fuuuuuuuuuucccckkkk. In a panic, I tried to muster up some pee to take another frantic test. About 6 positive tests later, it finally sunk in. ❤️

I don't even think I know anyone on Tumblr anymore, but I have this need to document this pregnancy like I did my first.

I left the house today! Did some shopping, looked at some maternity clothes, bought a Father's Day present for my hubby, and picked up groceries. Then I came home and made the fatal mistake of sitting on the couch. There goes all my energy...

I'm absolutely melting at the tiny hand.... 😢

I know this is ridiculous and vain, but I just feel so fat, fat, fat. I've been eating more and less active from being so darn tired, and I'm bloated like a blimp right now, which makes my pants a bit tighter than normal. Also, my bras are getting uncomfortably snug. It's all totally normal stuff that I fully expected, and it's only get to get worse, but it still makes me feel super blah and gross. :(

Went to bed with a headache and feeling nauseous. Woke up with no headache and still feeling nauseous. I think it's an improvement maybe?

This cramping is seriously freaking me out. It mostly feels like menstrual cramps, except I can tie it pretty much to activity. But a few are sharp enough to make my breath catch. Cervical and uterine. Anyone else experience these??

Ugh

Absolutely feeling terrible today. I've had a headache since yesterday - not caffeine related, surprisingly - and I've been hungry CONSTANTLY. I've literally been having to keep something in my stomach at all times, or I get terribly nauseous. Is it really possible for pregnancy symptoms to start so soon??

3w6d

This all feels incredibly surreal, and I keep expecting any moment to be like, "Oh wait, this was all some trick, I'm not really pregnant." BUT! Here goes for the first blog update of.....pregnancy! Eeeeeeee!

Symptoms

That's all I have right now. I've spent most of yesterday and today trying to take it all in, talking with Chris and coming to terms that holy cow, there is a baby in there!