May day 2015. Revolutionary napping. Be there.

I cannot fucking believe Tumblr deleted Leelahs blog. Fucking terrible like her blog being interrogated instead of transmisogyny being interrogated was bad enough but now to pretend this is about grieving family instead of a political act of erasure ughhhh

Don't reblog. I'm not trans, please center trans voices.

this is not a food blog

creative hummus: warning: not vegan: garlic

in a blender because <3

there's been a lot of debates lately about theory and access to theory and how people directly impacted will articulate their needs, but the leftists (who view themselves as separate from the masses as opposed to autonomous and within) almost make it sound like it has to be interpreted by/as/through Theory  and articulated in a particular way, through a particular lens, in order to be viable as critique. 

these words that end up meaning different things- critique/theory/analysis. 

when i was seventeen a friend who was regularly in my life died on the last day of school. it was very jarrring for me- the grief. the way his funeral was like the first social gathering of the summer but our lives were changed.  the way school resumed and his friends continued sitting in the same place at lunch but for me nothing was the same. the way i remembered talking on the phone with them when they thought it was just appendicitis only to later be the person on the phone calling and notifying people with the news. shit. i don't think i've ever written about it, now that i'm writing about it. i know i've talked about it a lot before when it was a less distant experience.

it took me years to deal with (and avoid) and work through all the doubts and pain and realixations. the week after he died was my last time in church as a believer. i found that the energy of his passing contributed to my consciousness - the breaking away of my perceptions from me being the focal point of my existence under construct-ion from my social surroundings... to an understanding of a broader term of existence of my fabricated perceptions and the deconstruction of them/my self. of death, and then the ensuing questioning of meaning and purpose. of value. of confusion, away from answers and toward the many truths of struggle.

i then got a tattoo that said 'seeking wisdom from tragedy' in danish because he was from Denmark. 

i have experienced paradigm shifts since, but this one was very painful. (i suppose the more recent ones are painful in different ways) death and mortality are a worthwhile thing to consider- insofar as to take the power that they wield over us away from those who might coerce us with our fears and situation.

I know that their passing, as an experience on the continuum that is my life, has affected and/or made possible in some way, my Revolt. And now in retrospect, I believe that the phrase will mean more through my revolt, even as it's meaning and application changes.

really should we mock each other? what gives? but what about the ancaps, we're appealing to the mass, right?

when people/leftists/wtvs are like 'oh yeah good action, direct, but don't be surprised when the empire strikes back'

fuck you

1) the era of symbolism and playing politics is long past us. our actions must become more direct. against what institutional power considers valuable, targeted at those that invest and profit from War. 2) The War MACHINE is deployed from the homeland. This means we need to organize ourselves to build a viable movement that will use blockades, disrupt recruitment, disrupt weapons manufacturers etc. There is also a domestic war on our streets against the people, upholding white supremacy, a war on the poor and we need to bridge these struggles. FOR TOO LONG have they used domestic issues to keep us disengaged from foreign US led geopolitical terror, and vice versa. War on the Streets and War Abroad must be explained in context together as a war on the poor. 3) we can appeal to the people, not to institutional power. this could also mean stop appealing to key 'sites' of power like the federal building and city hall. 4) what does solidarity actually mean? protest politics has severe limitations and keeps appealing to the morality of our leaders- this is ineffective. Moralism leads to nationalism it does not stop it. If we are in solidarity with Egypt, Turkey, Syria etc etc etc we must acknowledge that we live under the US regime and it is our responsibility to destabilize it as well as self organize a strong peoples movement against war of all kinds (especially economic class war by the Capitalists that make war on the poor and imperialism profitable and functional!) and especially a mounting movement against FASCISM. 5) diversity of tactics. this does not mean anyone has to condone actions and behavior that they would not take themselves voluntarily with consent. but it does mean that to the STATE we show FULL solidarity and stand against police terrorism. there is more we can do outside of permits and civil disobedience, in fact most of those measures have been recuperated by the state and kept ineffective. We need to have a broader dialogue. 6)  people's assemblies, so we can make spaces against the war more participatory. This would help with longer term participation instead of just coming out to a rally and listening to speakers. We need to broaden outside of traditional organizing structures to keep power decentralized instead of in the hands of key decision makers. We need to be intersectional, valuing the voices of womyn, queer/transgender, the dis-abled, immigrants, prisoners, the house-less, youth, and those most impacted by capitalism. 7) perhaps a participatory dialogue (not speakers, not a panel) and brainstorm on why the anti war movement has been so largely unsuccessful. Any building we do towards a strong movement against war and fascism has to be self critical and move to counteract the inevitable apologism and narrative of political management or forced unity/pacifism. Symbolism is dead. 

so posting that on facebook prompted quite a bit of dialogue. all of it appreciated. i apologize for the trivializing nature of the meme post; it's pretty clear that it isn't the 'same shit' at all, as implied in the meme. i took it to mean more nuanced shit but understand that other people with histories directly impacted by Nazi Germany and the Hitler regime wouldn't see it that way. sorry for the insensitivity.  i think when i saw that post all i could think about was fascism. and my privilege and distance from the situation, as well as my non-distance living under Obama, caused me to overlook some serious shit. namely, that I don't think sensationalized memes trivializing real struggles should be used to make political points. 

helllo today

i have to do somany things. i wish i could do nothing. i mean when i grow up as i grow up all i want to be is nothing no title, no position, no exchange value NOTHING but everyday it feels like i have to do something even as i do nothing (in terms of Work TM.)

i even read 'the call' about the overstimulated activist and i know it's not about 'protest politics' but, fuck, everyday SOMETHING

i hate organizational politics i hate politics but the demise of capitalism of this bureaucratic political regime of control and violence

that shit isn't inevitable i don't care what you say about the 'tide of history' shit has to be done narratives have to be smashed shit has to be provoked people have to be talked to

'the collapse' doesn't mean this fucked system is going to end itself and you know what clearly not everyone is ready for insurrection

explain that to me i don't want to meet people where they are at i don't want to lead people where they are at

but from where i'm standing i don't see many other people who want to take direct action and all i want is to disrupt everything

even though the second they find out you're an anarchist they'll float you down the fucking river most of you don't even see FASCISM

goddamn the learning curve

okay white people that keep trying to tell me what the real definition of racism is please just stop. getting your feelings hurt over someone calling out white supremacy, privilege or whiteness is not the same thing as experiencing racism. someone calling you a cracker or commenting on your skin color, or invisibility, is not racism. 

prejudice exists. i will fucking give you that. but Racism is power and prejudice, it comes from a place of structural and institutional power. Whiteness as a culture has been built on the backs of brown and black people, genocide and constant erasure via overseers and forced assimilation. If you benefit from whiteness, then you benefit from a system of white supremacy and institutional power that has and continues to routinely devalue black life and the lives of people of color. recognizing that is the bare minimum you can do.

how about instead of crying about reverse racism or whatever else bullshit you want to make up to make yourself feel less uncomfortable with being white, you sit the fuck down and listen to how people of color who have been subordinated under social and economic hierarchies define Racism and their oppression. 

white privilege doesn't mean you weren't poor, less able bodied, or marginalized.. it means that when it comes to race you are able to pass more easily in this white supremacist society that doles out privileges and power. it means that even if you are targeted by police, you probably aren't systematically targeted by police. it also doesn't mean you are treated the same as other whites, because you might be part of marginalized populations (like the houseless) that are disproportionately targeted (by society and the police). 

if you 'don't see race' or think you live in a 'post racial society' or think privilege 'shouldn't apply' then you're living in a dream world to escape facing privilege, power and white supremacy. You know who doesn't have the privilege to live in that dream world? people of color, people who have been colonized and displaced and dehumanized consistently as subordinated populations under the rule of property and power.

one can't be 'RACIST' towards white people because it doesn't come from a place of institutional power. i know it's hard to understand when you want to shove forced equality down everyone's throats, but that's called assimilation. and i've had ENOUGH of that. in this society we're NOT all treated the same. if you want to erase privilege, then abolish society. in the meantime confront your privileges and work to betray them publicly in open space instead of apologizing for them and trying to equalize racism. what the fuck. 

whiteness is when i post something about being called an 'anti white racist' for speaking critically about whiteness, white supremacy and racism and then some other entitled white person decides their going to educate me. there's a reason i didn't post this entire rant and i just posted a two-liner quip. maybe it's because I wanted to avoid white entitlement. GUESS WHAT it's unavoidable. 

endrant/

so we can't make rent, and we owe a bit already

i don't have a story to rlly give you.

either i find a way to get a job with more hours or we become houseless.

we're just anarchics who spend more time agitating than wage slaving.

i haz small job but recent dynamics (other contributors/participants) have changed in our space

and we need help

so any ideas

or donations

or tradesies

or encouragement

helps

los angeles, ca

biciliberation replied to your post: when people told me chalking (in los angeles) was...

FUCK THEM for targeting you sorry comrade about the court process.  :/ they keep fucking escalating situations and then fabricating charges to get people caught up in court and/or the jails! Police incited a riot last year at Chalkwalk an outreach event to notify the downtown art walk community about how we had been targeted for chalking and more importantly- occupying against gentrification and exposing the agenda of the lobbyists. They incited a 'riot' to justify their deployment of rubber bullets against the crowd, and in my opinion, to turn the small business community against our resistance.