i hate facebook. i hate how it has evolved. i hate social media. I hate that people see your statuses and piece them together to create perceptions of you that they don't even realize are formed by internalized societal projections/assumptions. i hate that people use facebook to organize, instead of strategically as a projectory platform. I hate that facebook made everyone feel comfortable like they can be friends, and non-serious, and non-security conscious. I hate that some people can be tyrants on threads and on others, tyrants are apologized for and defended (depending on social capital). i hate that constructive dialogue has died out because at the first sign of disagreement we begin to avoid conflict.
i hate that we've lost the ability to discuss ideas in a depersonalized way. like the idea is suspended in the air before us, and we can contribute and reflect and evolve it, but it does not belong to any of us. i hate that disagreements on organizing strategies are demonized and use divisively because we're still operating on outdated patriarchal notions of 'respect' and silencing, supremacy, control and 'safety'.
i hate how people talk shit like this is some clique circle nonsense when this is a SOCIAL war and all the shit talking you do you might as well be just gathering intel, or helping COINTELPRO type analytics. I hate when people talk or act like shit using like one fact about your life they feel sleuthy about finding out about you, and then this shapes an expectation of your behavior that when you interact with them in real life they are constantly measuring you against. i hate social capital, ego, creating cults of personality, organizing that depends on the domination of space, working a room. i hate how people want you to lead other people and when you don't they will slander you, because you just became useless to them.
I HATE WHEN YOU CHECK OPPRESSIVE LANGUAGE OR BEHAVIOR CAUSE YOU BELIEVE IN COMMUNITY AND SAFE(R) SPACES FOR QUEER/MARGINALIZED/POC and you are written off or mocked or even more alienated because 'we're all friends' or 'it's funny' or 'we don't have time for that right now cause this is a political action'. Fuck you, intersectionality is an ongoing political action. if YOU see fit to make me feel even more ANTI SOCIAL because you tolerate or protect behavior that made someone uncomfortable, don't be surprised that we disagree. Just because we disagree does not mean i hate you, check your fucking ego.
Stop making assumptions about people based on their facebook. Ask me in person goddamnit because if you are making assumptions about my behavior, ideas, gender, sexuality, race, class or ability (mental health or intelligence) I CAN feel that shit YO. If you think me going to an action or event is something for you to comment on, or an opportunity for you to pull me aside to tell me all of your theories and perceptions of me, please stop. if you think that my brain matter is something you think 'we need' then please stop. humyns are humyn, my redefinition of work is voluntary, i am not a resource. I am grateful to all of the input and amazing people i've met, but to heal and move forward and learn and evolve i am venting this shit out.
like after some shit escalated last year someone called me right after because the livestream was fucked and asked me what happened, so like an IDIOT, because i don't know how or who to trust with all the sectarianism and backbiting and NONSENSE, i tell them what happened. the next day they are talking shit, along with other sectarian fucks about whether shit was organized or not. like please, if your immediate response after police escalation is to blame the organizers (NOT EVEN KNOWING WHO THE ORGANIZERS ARE), or the people, don't fucking call me. don't fucking front with me or call me comrade. just be real so next time i don't take the time out of my night after being shoved and fucked with by cops to answer your phone call. because that shit STILL fucks with me. get out of my face, state targeting is enough without your juvenile fucking bullshit.
and don't ever fucking tell me that bullying is discipline.