helllo today

i have to do somany things. i wish i could do nothing. i mean when i grow up as i grow up all i want to be is nothing no title, no position, no exchange value NOTHING but everyday it feels like i have to do something even as i do nothing (in terms of Work TM.)

i even read 'the call' about the overstimulated activist and i know it's not about 'protest politics' but, fuck, everyday SOMETHING

i hate organizational politics i hate politics but the demise of capitalism of this bureaucratic political regime of control and violence

that shit isn't inevitable i don't care what you say about the 'tide of history' shit has to be done narratives have to be smashed shit has to be provoked people have to be talked to

'the collapse' doesn't mean this fucked system is going to end itself and you know what clearly not everyone is ready for insurrection

explain that to me i don't want to meet people where they are at i don't want to lead people where they are at

but from where i'm standing i don't see many other people who want to take direct action and all i want is to disrupt everything

even though the second they find out you're an anarchist they'll float you down the fucking river most of you don't even see FASCISM

goddamn the learning curve