Yes I hate the cure narrative and was actively harmed by it, literally making me more disabled in the attempts to make me less disabled. Yes I constantly wish I wasn’t disabled. We exist. This is a serious post. I don’t want to be “fixed” because I do not fit the norm or because other people feel bad for me. I want to live without my body making me suffer. I am sick of people conflating the two and saying the latter can only be because of the pressure of the former.
My disability pride is not “actually it’s awesome to be disabled”. If it’s awesome for you, I’m glad, but don’t extend that to every single one being. My disability pride is being loudly miserable when everyone wants me to pretend like I’m not. My disability pride is “my pain is my fucking issue, stop acting like it’s yours and like my autonomy should be replaced by your authority”. It is not all of it, too, but a core part.
I have no wish to position my feelings as universal, including as universal for people whose disabilities cause them inherent suffering. But too many people position their feelings, that exclude mine, as universal.