Hate Wins and Love Loses

Hey don’t fucking have eyestraining blog background colors, these can’t even be warned about.

Tl;dr:

I struggle with basic arithmetics.

But not enough that my school would let me not do math.

So I had to do math in school, straining my entire organism for that.

That is really bad, actually.

I don’t even need math in my life at all.

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I struggle with basic arithmetics.

I do not actually need math in my life. At all. I am lucky to live in the time and the environment where I can always have a calculator do it for me.

The fact that I had to do math in school is bad, actually, and not just for the general school reasons.

I was forced to strain myself on something my brain just fundamentally doesn’t do.

That something not even being remotely anything I would need in life.

But even if it was only one of those two things!

I want to focus on the former most of all here in particular though.

I have chronic migraines, and at least in the later years, when I was homeschooling, my headache would immediately get much worse when I’d just try to think in the direction of math. I don’t know if it was like that when I was public-schooling, there were too many sources of headache worsening.

I don’t remember if I had much math problems before middle school, though I always disliked math, but in middle school, it was very visible in my math work that my numbers were constantly wrong in the most basic ways.

It’s easier to do math on paper than in my mind, writing it out and using column math and long division *is an aid*, I can say I struggle with basic arithmetics even if in school I struggled less (using aids; also still struggled), I certainly do acknowledge those who struggle more than me and the ableism they face

But, so, my struggles with math were not enough for them to let me not do it, just enough for them to force me to struggle more trying to correct my mistakes, and as a whole I still had to do the thing that my brain just doesn’t do, and it was needlessly straining the entire me.

Please, does anyone have off-tumblr contact with the user autistictrevor?

I had a discussion with them, and they offered to delete their original post, but after my reply they deleted their entire blog.

I'm worried that they thought my wording meant asking that. I did not mean that.

I'm concerned for them. I don't want them to lose their social media because of a miscommunication. /gen

If anyone has off-tumblr contact with them, could you please send them this post?

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"Common sense" is not actually a thing.

If something is common sense to you, it is actually simply just because at some point in your life, perhaps a very long time ago, it was made explicit enough for you, and you were able to internalize it long term.

Even mainstreamly, things that are common sense to some are not to others. Then we have differing backgrounds, and then we have disability, about which this post was originally first of all intended.

"Common sense" is literally very close to "basic DNI". Or, "this food contains allergens. You know, the basic ones."

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“Common sense” is not actually a thing.

If something is common sense to you, it is actually simply just because at some point in your life, perhaps a very long time ago, it was made explicit enough for you, and you were able to internalize it long term.

Even mainstreamly, things that are common sense to some are not to others. Then we have differing backgrounds, and then we have disability, about which this post was originally first of all intended.

“Common sense” is literally very close to “basic DNI”. Or, “this food contains allergens. You know, the basic ones.”

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Less “some people need everything to be explicitly explained” and more “some people can understand things without an explicit explanation”. Why the fuck even is the latter default.

Block screamvi2023. There is a blazed ad for the new Chainsaw movie containing flashing lights.

@stripedroseandsketchpads @queer-adhd @chronicbitchsyndrome @delusion-of-negation may I ask for a boost?

Feels like so fucking many of you heard "you are autistic enough" and took it as "and people who are differently/more autistic are too autistic or aren't worth even acknowledging"

When I am treated “like a child” because of my disabilities the thing fucking isn’t that they “should treat me as adult” the thing is they shouldn’t fucking treat actual children and youth like that

Proposition to my fellow low-masking autistics: tagging posts about our experience as "#lowmasking autism", low-masking as one word, without either the dash or a space.

I wanted to search for "low-masking autism" and all I got was posts from high-masking autistics about masking. This is not a "they take up all the space" post — this is a "computer functionality sucks sometimes, let's do this practical thing" post.