in which i, an avatar fanart blog, talks about love, creation, and sin
silence and fear have ruled over me. i’ve always been scared to talk and make friends and keep those friendships because i seek people’s approval and i have so much quiet pride which makes me want to be better than others without explicitly saying i am. and so i shut up. and i avoid. and then i create sometimes, but it’s all been shallow art. at least i maintain a neutral- hopefully, slightly positive- presence because being bullied isn’t something i wanted to get used to
but i’ve been given love and courage that i haven’t been using. i’ve been fortunate to have a voice and to have the means to share that but i’ve been selfish. i’ve wanted to preserve what little charm i have and it’s so dumb. SO-
you and i? we’re sinners. we feel and see and hear and speak and exist in darkness and imperfection in a world that was intended to be good for us. we have separated ourselves from God our Creator and so resulted in our own creations- sin, selfishness, fear, inequality, injustice, racism, pride, loneliness, and i would go on but it’s real sad
what’s not real sad? God is God. the few times i’ve shared the message of God and salvation with people, i’ve always led with God loves you. and it’s because it’s true and i love to hear it so chances are, others would love to hear it first and foremost too. but in order to preserve that neutral, hopefully slightly positive image, i haven’t been mentioning that God is capable of hatred too. because too many needless times, people have taken that fact and twisted it to feed their own hatred of people different from them.
God can hate but he has never hated you or me. He hates what we’ve created- it’s shallow and self-preserving and prideful and it has separated us from him. He set out to give us a good life in a good world to be filled with good people.
and he gave us choices and freedom
and here we are- lost and scared for the future, confused and angry about why injustice still reigns, saddened and hopeless when we lose our dreams and loved ones.
and here it is, my favorite part: God loves you. Jesus gave up His life so that we can have ours. we separated ourselves and yet God is still reaching out to us because he is in love with us even when we have deemed ourselves unlovable. the sin that has broken our connection has been obliterated by that love.
it’s that love that has kept me living. i’ve wanted to give up die, fade into peace, no worries, no pain. but that’s not what’ll happen. as flawed and sinful as we all are, when we die, we can’t enter the same place as GOD (come on dude this guy holy!! and perfect!!). u know what that means - 7734 (now flip your calculator upside down)
i use humor as a defense mechanism... it’s not that good but i still use it. um
but seriously guys, hell is real.
and God’s love is real. and it’s real that He’s the only one that can save us from ourselves, from our sin, from our messed up creations that we call government, self-hatred, poverty, and the like. God is God and that statement is something that i’m still learning to fully grasp, if i could ever.
For God so loved you, that he gave his only Son. If you believe in Him, you won’t perish in that sin that He hates. And instead, you’ll have life, actual life that is forever good, back in connection with the God of good. (John 3:16, paraphrased by me, an avatar fanart blog to talk to you, u cutie, u wonderful and loved being)
isn’t it time for something good?
