Rest in Eternal Peace, Dad.
5/17/1943 - 08/27/2020
Please, if anyone on here is thinking of committing suicide, please know that the implications are unimaginable and that so many people could and would have shouldered your burden with you. This has burned itself into our minds and devasted us in ways we couldn't predict. I wish he would have talked to any of us. I kept having panic attacks that felt like I was dying and would call the house at times he would answer, oddly enough, before this happened, basically forcing him to talk to me and console me, and maybe my soul was trying to help him and save him that way and now I just feel empty, hollow and broken. Dad, I miss you and love you, wish you hadn't have done this. You weren't alone in your struggled and we would have forgiven you and tried to help you. This did happen shortly after my mom found out he had a mistress, and they were getting a divorce, but if only he knew how many men actually have this same struggle, he would have been surprised.
Saw this on the way over to the house 8/29/20, and another one 2 days after that. Then another 2 days or so after that the sky broke open.
I still wish he didn't leave by his own decision.