Y’aaaaall hear me out,u gotta watch this movie on billibilli

mfs be like “theyre my comfort character!!” then its the most traumatized character in the show (im mfs)

Ohhh [fictional character with worse mental health than me] save meeeee from this cruel world.

𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐤𝐞𝐲 | eren jaeger chapter 5

⊱𖣂⊰ | In which you fall into a fictional world with the key to Pandora's box.

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chapter word count: 3.1 k

content warnings: mild dissociation, blanket warnings

a/n: So! Chapters may be more spaced out from now on. I've got six halfway written and seven and eight outlined, but I'm swamped in schoolwork rn, so the updates will have to take a backseat. I swear I wont abandon this though, I already got way too attached to it. Anyway, I offer you this plot-continuing chapter. I hope it answers some of your questions and leaves you with some more.

Thanks for reading!

𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐖𝐀𝐊𝐄 𝐔𝐏 𝐓𝐇𝐄 next day with a bitter taste on your tongue. You lay unmoving, in a similar way to your first morning. The only difference is, there is nothing in your mind. No anxieties, no thoughts, no nothing. The you two weeks ago would be embarrassed, but now you just feel numb. 

You vaguely remember snapshots of yesterday, although you still can't recall specific sounds or sensations. Everything —the past, present, and future— is stuck in a haze. Even nature seems to be aware of this, as you can’t hear the soft coos of birds outside your window, or the rustling of leaves as wind passes through them. 

This is just a little thought dump again cuz omgggg I loved this chapter!!! And no worries about it taking longer! Take ur time and I can’t wait to see what you’ll do 💜

this is out of order again btw cuz I wrote part of it while rereading

crying

Uh....australian here. We don’t talk like that. At all. This shits closer to how white South Africans talk lmao

Uh...white south African here. Neither do we lol

uh... white person here. i jack off to goombas from the super mario bros games

Uh... another white person here. I think we need to bring back the lemon stealing whores.

LEMON STEALING WHORES!?!?

I can only apologise for the lateness of this, my ask box is flooded with requests. (Thank you for your interest) It started with burnout, then my laptop broke, then I was busy (I still am really) and this year I've lost family members and just all round been a time where Tumblr isn't my main priority. Thank you for understanding 💓

Reiner

If your choice is Reiner, continue reading. If it's Porco, you'll find it here when it's uploaded.

No cheating!

Reiner Braun…..

It’s too late now….damned if I know whats right anymore…who cares, it is what it is….no choice but to face what I’ve done….and as a warrior…fulfill my duty to the bitter end.

Follow my instagram for more of my art

@brave-and-gentle @reinersluvrr @wintrrxxo @sundew199 @shat-on-the-dick dude look at this!!!!

@reiners-milkbiddies @braunsbabe thought u guys might like this too 👀

finally, i'm going to do the thing i’ve always wanted to do in the back of my mind and make a post in defense of Zeke Jaeger—but this is primarily a character analysis. (politely, don’t send me a mean ask on anon without at least reading this all the way through first if you were thinking of doing that.)

i think that the best way to understand Zeke’s philosophy, morals, and behavior is through a general lens of NPD, or Narcissistic Personality Disorder. as someone approaching having a bachelors degree in psychology and personal experience with cluster b personality disorders (NPD, BPD, HPD).

first of all, i’m going to dispel some misconceptions. do i have experience with a narcissist in real life? yes. does NPD mean a person is evil? NO. are people born with NPD? biologics can make a person susceptible to it, but NO. the attributes of personality disorders are learned in childhood. are narcissists delusional? NOT ALWAYS (i won’t get into narcissistic injury here though).

the cause of NPD in a person originates—like all personality disorders—in childhood trauma (think CPTSD, ACEs, general neglect and instability). specifically, a child whose every need is met and receives (whether earned or NOT, which is very important in zeke’s case) a large amount of praise and admiration, in conjunction with prestige and special treatment. all of this, and yet WITHOUT a secure bond with a main caregiver/family member because of neglect or abuse in any form. the narcissist therefore develops low or in some cases (especially when comorbid with ASPD (anti-social personality disorder)) no empathy. the narcissist is so chronically abused or mistreated that in order to survive, they learn that their ultimate goal is self-preservation, mentally, emotionally, physically, at any cost. some narcissists are aware of these feelings or abusive behavior being abnormal, but they can’t comprehend how their view of the world/people can be erroneous; how other people are as valuable as themselves, even loved ones—although cognitively a narcissist can care about someone.

these symptoms are extremely relevant to Zeke Jaeger, so much so that i just wrote a paragraph explaining it in a character analysis about Zeke Jaeger.

@cosmicjoke I just am very curious to hear your thoughts on this since I love your analysiss (feel free to ignore this tho if you want to of course)

And I’ll sing a song that’ll be just ours ❤️

nanami i respect u so much,

@i4sgwr

Made my own design for Fell and I drew him. The skeletons have taken over my head… so expect more… probably.

Oh and here’s his design I made.

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afterwork

Possessed Wukong 🥺🍑❄️

Before I edited it ⤵️

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