I don't even know where to start, sorry, buuut Ghostfuckers spoilers ahead.

"Who needs you anyway?!"

Blitz's avoidant coping once more. I am guilty of avoidant behaviour just like Blitz and while it technically eases stuff, it becomes too much when there's so many problems you ignore and they pile up. This behaviour also makes it hard for someone to be vulnerable, which obviously is the case for Blitz, too. It hurts to be vulnerable. We avoid being vulnerable, because we avoid being hurt.

So instead of trying to talk through with Millie, Blitz opts for being avoidant.

The imagery in this episode is fucking amazing.

Now this is just cruel. :(

She's so pretty, omg...

Once again, the imagery is amazing. It's so beautiful, but so tragic. Fucking horrible in the best way. The torment Blitz is going through of that fateful day.

He's breaking down... Crying in front of someone else; this man is avoidant, as stated before, so if he could help he would NOT do this. He's really tormented by his memories.

They're both so badass damn.

"You don't hate me?" I'm disintegrating rn. Help me.

How am I supposed not to sob my eyes out when I see that face?! Taking mom's accessory piece back.

Holding hands!!! Please, yes!!!

"You've always been so unbothered by everything, almost bulletproof"

That's avoidance, baby! Blitz needs to stop being relatable...

But why-

This absolute POS beating up his already injured son has me fucked up!!! I don't doubt Cash probably beat Blitz many times before, but doing so after being burnt too is a special kind of fucked up! He's always been horrible, and I'm sure this is where Fizz too got his issues (with perfectionism that is) and made him an easy target for Mammon. This mdf really fucked everyone over! Fk him!

And then separating them when they both needed each other so much! Blitz and Fizz needed each other more than ever in that moment, and yet that POS preferred to have them suffer! I'm riled up honestly, we've never seen much of this mf but he's managed to make himself insufferable with just a few short scenes! He's horrible and if he's not dead then I wish him the worst.

I miss my baby-

Being forced to watch all this... Fuuuuck.

He's so terrified of losing Millie too! Fuck!

"Blitz can handle this!" Fuck yeah girl, call that mf's bluff.

"So I'm your best friend, huh?" He's so surprised about that I can't.

"I've never had a real friend that I didn't wanna fuck..."

...Does that include Fizz? Hm?

This episode was fucking beautiful.

ok can we kill Cash Buckzo painfully now, as well as being an (very likely) alcoholic, he was also physically abusive, AND KEPT HIM FROM FIZZAROLLI AFTER THE CIRCUS FIRE.

I think that one of the aspects of Blitzø's circus life we all usually forget about is that he has always lived in the context of a community

Let's say he was 20 when the fire happened - that were 20 years in living on the road (in "The Circus" Paimon said that the circus was "In town", so it definitely was a traveling circus) not just with his close family (mother, sister + Fizz and shitty dad) but also a whole lot of other people that definitely he saw as family too. Cash was also the owner of it so Blitzø probably was one of the main go-to people there being the boss' son and all. He sucked at being a clown? He could be useful in other ways, helping mending caring for the horses (getting sold around to earn more money *cough cough*)

I think it's safe to assume that he has spent more than half of his life knowing nothing but family. Love. Unity. Community. And then suddenly he was left with nothing at all. Estranged from everything and everyone, all of his "family" turned their backs on him, accusing him of something he would have never never done on purpose and has been forced (and has forced himself) to live alone ever since, not really creating bond with others anymore - at least not until he adopted Loona and gave himself a new chance at the whole "family" and "community" thing. And then welcoming Millie and Moxxie in (I'm 100% sure Ghostfuckers will show us how he met Millie and how that will be similar to his encounter and relationship with Moxxie) - picking up "outcasts" or people that anyway feel lost and alone like him because he knows what it's like to feel like that and how much better it is being together

"You tried the solo act" but it ended up badly, because he simply cannot phantom living alone, no matter how hard he tries convincing himself that he is better off alone and people are better off without him. That man is so full of love to give because despite everything he was brought up with nothing but love and unity around him and has been aching for it since forever

my time theory of events

Family Buckzo ✨💝

OOOOOOOOO

I'm just like AAAHHH!!! It looks like Cash was the one to separate Fizz and Blitz! >:(

The comic is almost finished. It remains to finalize some details, but for now got spoilers (without text)

Still working on a mini comic

I tried to color it. It was difficult enough, but I managed. My hand still shakes a little when I draw on a graphics tablet, but that's okay. I'm just getting used to it. I plan to partially colorize the future mini-comic (Sorry, but it turned out to be 20 pictures, God, I think I'll combine it all into one video) But coloring will take quite a long time, so you'll have to wait…

The process is in full swing! But there are still a lot of frames to paint (although it would seem that this is a mini-comic, but something went wrong ahaha!)

My Cash & Tilla Buckzo AU

So this is an au that I've had in my head for a little while now, & I've grown to really love it a lot. This is basically a lovers-to-friends, friends-to-strangers, tragic-love au, created from my obsession with these circus imps & wanting to write something since we (as of now) know nothing about Cash & Tilla's relationship in canon.

something something helluva text posts

one | two | three | four | five | six

just a one off thing this time. the second i saw this post i knew what needed to be done.

Canon leave me & my heart alone, let me believe that they genuinely loved each other-

(inspired by this song and this song)

I just think he's neat!

I colored a previous fanart I did for HelluvaBoss. I adore Fizz. 🥰

Dad, I forgot my backpack at home

(inspo)