The Abyss Also Stares

i cant go on twitter any more because they took tweetdeck away so i wanted to archive some of the important work i've only posted over there. heres some of my drawings for my involved mdzs au where wei wuxian has to wear mo xuanyu's fursuit to sneak into a convention he is banned from in in order to solve a murder

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"ah yes. me. my soulmate. and his assumed-eradicated undead sentient tool of mass destruction."

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It is sort of interesting to read the comments on that cql v mdzs wangxian dynamics post to see so many people saying they don't like the idea of wangxian being soulmates without having been close friends first, but in my onion I do think them NOT being friends as teens functions majorly in the overarching themes of stolen youth/mistakes made in youth. Wangxian to me has always felt like an exploration of missed connections during times of uncertainty, and how you can reclaim the moments you missed out on as settled adults when the dust has blown over and you've both grown into yourselves (analysis of the incense burner extra from this pov actually made me appreciate it when I absolutely hated it before). Mdzs is hugely a story of regret, specifically in regretting how a character acted when they were younger/more reactionary/had less information than they do now when reflecting on that memory, and wangxian is a natural consequence of the optimism that regretting doesn't have to be forever + there's time to make new memories that are no less precious than ones you might have had had you never made mistakes

When I’m not crying about LWJ mourning WWX for 13 years I’m cracking up about him being the most down bad in a teen girl way everrrrrrr.

sometimes lwj thinks about yiling laozu

genuinely moved by the end of mdzs like I'm so glad that lan wangji and wei wuxian are just spending days together traveling and helping people and fucking nasty and disrespectfully.

Also I talk a lot about how embarrassing it is to be in angry love with Wei Wuxian, but when they first have to recite the Wen laws, and he activities little shit mode to be like “I’ll read the Wen laws :)” and then recites the precepts of the Lan Clan—if I was Lan Wangji coming fresh off my clan’s recent massacre, I’d also be so so so in love with him. That’s sexy and deeply romantic on both a personal and a geopolitical level. That’s the best kind of complex and sexy. I’m actually insane about this relationship. We say this a lot on this ole website but biting and biting and ripping and tearing for real, dude, for real.

Imagine you are a teen boy who is nicknamed essentially "We Have Very High Expectations For This One" and also you have to act perfectly because your parents' situationship is so extremely sloppy that it's a political issue, and also you are not very talkative and everyone universally finds you at least somewhat intimidating to approach, and your life is bound by over 3000 rules and some of the most important ones are self-inflicted by your pride, but then suddenly there's another teen boy who is unlike anyone you've met before (derogatory), and he won't stop bothering you, he won't stop going out of his way to tease you, he in fact won't ever leave you alone, he seems to want to spend time with you so badly if only to piss you off, and he seems to view the walls you've built around yourself as a fun little vaulting challenge, but he's also so annoying and irresponsible and disrespectful and charismatic and brave and good at fighting and sweet and loud and boorish and popular with people in every way you aren't, and he won't stop complementing you while tormenting you, and sometimes it seems like you're special?? to him???? but then he flirts the exact same way with someone else, and you've got to remind yourself that, no, you aren't special to him, this is just the Way He Is, so even if destiny seems to keep trying to throw you together, that's just because the universe is fundamentally cruel and you're gonna just compartmentalize this cringe-ass, extremely ill-advised crush because god forbid your pride get hurt, but also there's a moment in a cave after you've saved him and he's saved you and now you're trapped down here together, and you tell him to not flirt with people if he doesn't mean it, and he's accuses you of being jealous, and then suddenly a horrible new possibility occurs--that this teen boy who is unlike anyone you've met before (honorific) knows exactly what he is doing to you, that he is in fact trying to do this to you, that maybe you are not reading into something that isn't there, that maybe you ARE special to him, and there's a very very long pause where you're looking at him and he's looking at you, and you're like "THIS IS IT" without even knowing what "it" is, and then he smiles so brightly like he's figured out a mystery and says, "you've got a crush on that girl!" and NO ONE will ever know how impressive it is that you did not end this conversation by getting up and limping over to the demon tortoise so you can god willing instantly die but unfortunately there's literally years and years more of this bullshit to go

I too would simply bite the shit out of him and then not let go

I don't care who wins the shipping semi-finals, they are both my little investigative darlings.

This is what i drew instead of paying attention to the lecture i was supposed to be listening to

free my man he only did some of that

Here’s my piece for “If I had to keep being separated from you like this (I’d rather die)” by pombaere for the bottomji big bang

Link to the fic!

LET THEM SLEEP

Part 1 of 2.

See part 2 on twitter, cut from tumblr due to a trigger warning for gore.

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