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You Are Not Alone

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This is a Mental Health support blog. Where you can come and talk about your problems and we will not judge. Where you can submit problems that you deal with when dealing with your neurodivergence.
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Anonymous asked:

my mom died when i was 12 and no one ever asked if i was ok and no one ever talked about it. im trying to stop blaming my dad and sister and brother but it just gets harder. i feel like my brother abandoned me because after she died he moved out two months later. He never asked if i was ok and it hurts the most that he didn't talk to me or try to help me. i am 18 years old with depression and i want to talk to him about all this but i am so scared. i dont know why but i am terrified

Hi there, anon.

I’m really sorry to hear about your mother. Death in the family is never an easy thing to handle, especially not at a relatively young age like that. Having family that doesn’t try to ensure you’re doing okay only makes it worse.

First of all, I’d like to say that it’s okay for you to be disappointed in how your family handled the situation. It’s okay to wish they would’ve done things differently. Of course, you do also have to acknowledge that they were dealing with the same grief as you, though. Everybody had to deal with this situation in their own way - unfortunately that sometimes makes it hard to look out for others.

Talking to your brother is a big step, being scared is normal. But if you think this is the right thing for you and that it could help you be more at peace, please do so. Make sure you do it in a situation that makes you feel comfortable. There is no rush. You can do it, sooner or later. Hopefully, your brother will understand, since he might've even felt something similar.

Best wishes, anon. I hope this works out for you.

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Anonymous asked:

im scared of driving i can drive with my brother just fine but when i drive with my dad and sister i feel like i want to die and i feel so anxious and im trying so hard not to cry. im scared ill never get my license im 18 and i still cant drive for shit. im too scared of everything and if i cant drive i might as well die.

Hey there, anon. I’m sorry this is stressing you out so much.

First of all, there’s nothing wrong with not driving. I’m 18, I can’t drive and I probably never will drive. It’s okay to not be able to drive (for whatever reasons) and/or not to want to drive. You can take your time with getting your license if that’s what you want or need. There is no rush.

Either way, if you really do want to keep driving, just try your best to avoid driving with your dad and sister. Ask your brother instead. If you can, try and think about why driving with them in particular scares you so much - there might be another, underlying issue at hand.

In addition, check out this ask I answered for resources concerning your anxiety.

I really hope things get better soon, anon. Best wishes.

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Anonymous asked:

im sorry to bother you i just really want to talk to someone i feel so terrible and shitty and lonely and i have no reason to live but i dont want to die and im always so sad and confused and i dont want to tell my friends about it because i dont want to burden them and i dont think they care and i dont even know why i feel this way i hate myself and everyone else and i dont know what to do please tell me what to do im so so tired of being sad

Hi there, anon. I’m really sorry to hear you’re doing so badly.

First of all, you’re not bothering me. I’m glad you’re willing to talk to me, honestly. It’s a lot better than keeping everything inside.

Bottling up all these feelings really isn’t good, anon. I suggest trying to talk to your friends about it or, if you’d really rather not, try 7cupsoftea or similar websites. I’m sure your friends won’t mind you talking to them, though. They’re your friends for a reason, after all.

You can try checking out some of these links 1 2 to maybe help you cope with your depression (at least I’m assuming that’s what you’re describing).

Lastly, I want to address something. I don’t believe that anybody needs a “reason” to live. Simply you, existing for yourself, on your own terms, is all you need. No justification. I hope you can ponder that a bit and, maybe, see things the way I see them.

I hope some of this helps you, anon. Best wishes.

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Depression

Dear depression,

I despise you and i wish i could cut you out of me. you make me drown whilst others float, you taint everything with mud and sickness. I am sick of crying and ripping out my hair because I am so damn scared to go outside. I want to die. I want to be eviscerated and incinerated until even the ash is nonexistent. I want someone to put me out of my misery, I want someone to rip and tear skin and flesh and bone out of me. i want to be able to wake up without feeling the world would have been better off if I had had an aneurism in my sleep. you are a leech and scum and I want you to get the fuck out of my head. because of you my mind is a quagmire, festering and unrelenting. My head is on fire and I have no release from you, the only thing keeping me from killing myself is that the idea of letting you win enrages me.

I may be a coward and a worthless pile of carbon and plasma but I am still so much more powerful than you or anything else you can throw at me. I don’t care if it’s selfish, if you want to hitch a ride on me then you’ve got yourself a fucking challenge buddy. when I do die it’ll be after I’ve had a meaningful life, not when you feel like fucking me over.

signed,

your pissed off vessel.

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