Welcome to my Hell

I am getting so emotional thinking about how Gabriel was right after Lucifer's fall, the sheer agony of seeing his family torn apart when his very reason for being was linked to caring about his family. Gabriel trying to follow Lucifer down so he wouldn't be alone, Raphael and MIchael holding him back, desperately clinging to the last vestiges of their family. The night Gabriel finally leaves heaven is the night he puts away his grief and puts up his trickster's guise like armor, and he doesn't look back. Maybe he can't look back, because if he does then everything he tried so hard to push down will come flooding back, and his fear would never let him confront those feelings.

Extremely cursed au idea: John dies when Sam & Dean are still kids, and Azazel just happened to be checking in on them around this time and well. I guess now he’s got to raise them.